My life- A Roller Coaster

:::Saturday, November 27, 2004:::

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:::Friday, November 26, 2004:::

http://us.share.geocities.com/doors2diplo/compilation.bmp

ermm. goign to get myron to host this file now so can use remote linking. so meantime..

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:::Thursday, November 25, 2004:::

VITAMIN C LYRICS

"Graduation (Friends Forever)"

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives

Where we're gonna be when we turn 25

I keep thinking times will never change

Keep on thinking things will always be the same

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back

No more hanging out cause we're on a different track

And if you got something that you need to say

You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound

And I keep thinking of that night in June

I didn't know much of love

But it came too soon

And there was me and you

And then we got real blue

Stay at home talking on the telephone

We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared

Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair

And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on

We remember

All the times we

Had together

And as our lives change

Come Whatever

We will still be

Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs

And we make the big money

When we look back now

Will our jokes still be funny?

Will we still remember everything we learned in school?

Still be trying to break every single rule

Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?

Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

And this is how it feels

[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:

Yeah, yeah, yeah

La, la, la, la:

We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?

Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

[Repeat 1 (3x)]

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:::Wednesday, November 24, 2004:::

http://www.christianitytoday.com/ct/2001/006/5.92.html

"Bitter news, this. And that is the main danger in a world of unfairness: bitterness. The danger is to indulge our bitterness, to feel justified in it, to feel justified in the deeds that spring from it. The danger is that we will, on principle, refuse do the right thing. After all, we reason, has God done the right thing? Isn't God a hard man, reaping where he has not sown, gathering what he has not scattered?"

"So what is right? If that is the stark command to Cain—"Do what is right"—what is right? What is right in a world where little girls get sick and die and genocidal despots live in luxury? Where hard-working men go bankrupt and swindlers go on swindling? Where slumlords and warlords get rich off the spoils and good people are left to scavenge? Where all the wrong people, it seems, suffer?"

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my blog is all about whining. I dun really care actually. i mean if people dun wan to read whine-ish blog, its ok. maybe becaz my life is too whineful till there's nth unwhineny to blog abt.

Father's Side:
-Nearest Cousin 7 years older. followed by 10.
-family is most 'well-off' compared to the rest
-A lot of 'traditional' Aunts And Uncles

Mother's Side:
-Nearest Cousin 10-15? years older.
-family is middle 'well-off' compared to the rest
-Mainly Traditional Aunts and Uncles

Why have i list these two sides out? Because. i feel that. when everytime i hear friends, people, strangers. read. listen. about them mentioning:

"ya i went out wif my cousin to so and so"
"meeting them for"
"i got a choker from my uncle"
"i go and mix around wif my cousins frequently. they tell me their stuff(around same age mah)"
"got a game (called XXX) with them"

etcetc

Man. All my life. be it childhood or now. I feel very lost. Left out. It's like so deprived? Everytime i hear my friends all describing their experiences, when chatting. I am like. ok. I dont have that. Man youngest in the generation. T.t. I don't even have the opportunity to enjoy life, live it, make it, pull it with my cousins.

They are like? so far gap betweeen me and them. I feel irony, feel 'left out in the dark', feel that green jealous feeling. I am like living 'in the shadows'. The joy my friends, foes, strangers and people have is just not within my life. It's like not meant to be.

My Aunts and Uncles are like. Dunno anything about me. Man, even ben soh's uncle gave him a choker for his birthday. So cool lorh. Me? Nothing. My Aunts/Uncles/Cousins don't know a single thing. They don't know how i feel, don't care. I never have my birthday celebrated(except first year) or received any gifts. It's not known. Relatives are non-existent

That stage of life is about to be over. Or it continues forever?

Life is unfair. I know it. I believe in this sentence. It's true. But i want to change the unfairness to as neutral as possible. But how are you going to pull ages together? change mindsets?

Only one part of unfairness being mentioned. Countless more.

It just doesn't click with me. It's like I am not meant to be in this body.

'Do you ever feel like breaking down?(yes)
Do you ever feel out of place?(yes)
Like somehow you just don't belong(yes)
And no one understands you(abit)
Do you ever wanna run away?(more)
Do you lock yourself in your room?(no)
With the radio on turned up so loud(want to)
That no one hears you screaming(want to)
No you don't know what it's like(ya)
When nothing feels alright(ya)
You don't know what it's like to be like me(ya)

[Chorus:]

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?(yes)
Are you sick of feeling so left out?(yes)
Are you desperate to find something more(yes)
Before your life is over(101%)

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?(yes)
Are you sick of everyone around?(yes)
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies(hmm)
But deep inside you're bleeding(ya)
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me(...)

[Chorus:]

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy (..)
But I'm not gonna be ok(..)
Everybody always gave you what you wanted(9999999999%)
You never had to work it was always there(1000000001%)
You don't know what it's like(urmm)
What it's like(Hell.)

[Chorus:]What it's like

[Chorus:]Welcome to my life Welcome to my life '

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 1:24 AM

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:::Sunday, November 21, 2004:::

Hair

wait wait . let me recap last 2 days first !

Friday

Chem paper. ok la. dun wanna talk about it. i just know i got make several blunders. budden not veri bad also la. maybe gd gd? who knows

Wah after exam, every1 kena given 50 bucks worth of funfair coupon. lolz. i most prob need to buy wif my own cash... i mean.. haizzzz.... just go enjoy next yr feb 26th? haha

ok den went wif zhi wei lucas edawrd bensoh darius qingyuan shawn landon and ws go ps. at first go eat at cafe cateldel i tink. den we got tickets for the show 'shutter' i wanted to watch it la. buddne haiz they wanted incredibles.. LUCKY solded out! den shutter on front row seat :(

hahaha the show blends quite well. for those who ever watch i am not GOING spoil the plot for u. but just be prepared to 'scream' a little. i tink i like yelped 3 times? one at the ladder, car and forgot le.

hmm the 5% of the movie i missed WAS looking at my frenz getting scared. hahah damn joker. lucas 70% of the movie looking one side cover his eyes den cannot see the screen. man from the photo tat part liddat liaoz. haha. den wei sheng and darius use hands cover. wanna luff! in sch so big now so timid haha. bensoh also. use jacket cover. but me! me! the gosu! :P

Saturday

wait. i slept at aroudn 330 after i came back from shutter. its like come back at 1230. move comp bathe. den war3 like siao :P den super tired. but's tat's only the beginning of the day :P
suppose to wait up around 9 go play soccer at 10 at jace house. low and behold woke up at 955. den rush eat bla bla. omg den i go take taxi 8.80 bux! i tot no1 dere den need players urgently mah. den in the end 15-18. i met my nemesis aaron :P

wah den play tennis after tat. damn tiring. go plaza go eat play pool. of course guys always win girl(sexist mcp) so of course i won liz in pool :P

ahah den go creative fair go see. no cash to buy anything:(

ok i am damn tired to talk abt my hair now. maybe another day. hhaa

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 3:47 PM

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:::Friday, November 19, 2004:::

ok. i just looked thru my method again. was thinking if iddint make the blunder would i still get the same answers?

my method is wrong also :( i had two AO length inside

damn it i am so stupid

why cant i just x^2 + y^2 = 250
den sum in y=3x

I DUNNO WHY I CANNT SEE IT?
gonna be damn ego now. i tink i probably too smart den cannot see think of complex method which is wrong and i made a bluner doing it further more.

SHIT right now i freajking scared. let's say p1 67 den RI answr scheme got prob?? so 65.

den my p2 -10 for this -1 for inverse question. den probably -2 more becaz my k value i forgot equals to?

-13 le den sure minus more
OMG I AM SO F up

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 11:17 AM

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HELL man :((sorri for vulgalrity)

BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
oh ya did i tell u my amath brilliant mistake?
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
x^2(to the power of2) minus y^2 = x^2y^2. i spent 45 mins thought my method wrong. was puzzled why cannot solve..den inv see thsi until i hand up
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
they jus ask u to solve x^2-y^2 wad
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
lolz
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
ya budde n icombined all my equations to 1 to find y coordinate of B
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
den accidnetally dunno why nv see minus sign
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
LOL
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
45 mnis also cannot spot
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
u found A coordiante?
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
its like x= y/3
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
den i get y^4 / 9
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
no?
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
i tot muz solve that equation to even find y coordinate?
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
a*
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
its like 250 = sumthing -x2-y2
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
yeah
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
dat's 1 eq.
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
then use y=3x to solve
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
i got antoher equation
-1/3 = y-y / 0-x
den y= 1/3x +y
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
so igot 250 = 1/3x +y -x2y2(i forgot MINUS sign) sianz
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
wth
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
haha
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
den sub in y=3x den ..
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
blind spot
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
-1/3 = y-y / 0-x
den y= 1/3x +y
i got gradeint of AB. den use y-y1 / x-x1
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
omg so chim
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
wad's the simplier method?
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
i cannot see
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
given those 2 eqs rite, u can find A coordinate
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
which 2 equation?
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
250 = ??? -x2-x2?
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
how do uknow ???
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
using eq OA n the length 250
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
wait y=3x?
and?
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
length 250 is OA wad
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
so jus put (x^2+y^2)root
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
250 = x2 +y2?
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
=root 250
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
ya
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
dat's 1 eq
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
sianz i dunno why i tink so much go solve B straight away
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
lolz
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
after finding A coordinate, u can find grad AB, eq AB then find B coordinate
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
since gradeint aB = -1/3
den -1/3 = y-y1 / x-x1
x =0 mah
so y=1/3x +y
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
den
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
250 = hypothesis minus AO
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
250 = (1/3x+y)^2 - x^2-y^2
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
huh dun need to find length anymore
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
den i accidentally COMBINE sia
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
becaz my y=3x x=3/y mah
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
y/3*
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
wah brilliant
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
so sub in
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
budden my x^2-y^2 accidentally became x^2y^2 = y^4 /9
yahu--this is it..november..last day of madness. WE CAN DO IT! says:
LOL
BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says:
den whole 45 mins i nv see ur method blehz
sry 4

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 10:54 AM

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:::Thursday, November 18, 2004:::

BRILLIANT! READ x^2-y^2 = x^2y^2. 10 marks thrown away. 1 stupid careless mistake... 45 mins summore still nv c !F*** S*** says

the nick title says it all

10 marks. got 45 mins. i thought my method wrong. i tried another. i thought carelessness. i checked. nv see. man i used 2 diff sheets. like back page finsih go on fresh 1.. den i tot carelessness onli on the latter sheet den nv see the first 1.. got 45 mins. still cannot :( cock eye man. and its 10 marks. i mean its not i dun haf ability lorh. freaking eye got problem

x^2 -y^2 = x^2y^2. i probably wrote too small or just too happy that i was goiugn to get 'full marks'. i tink its becaz .. just nature :'(

45 mins. 45 mins. cannot see.

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 11:22 PM

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:::Wednesday, November 17, 2004:::

omg todae most gayous day ever.

i probably failed geog. i did qn10 followed by 4 den 6 den 2. guesswad? i had 10 mins to do 18 marks for my question 2. the chemical weathering,ox bow lake and levees... chemical weathering i onli wrote oxidation and carbonation. plus 1 liner. den my ox bow lake and levees anyhow smoke. sianz let's say -10 confirmed le. den question 6 the highest density question i tot area 1 is ipoh lorh. haha it's KL. -5,6 le. so minus 15,16 confirmed le? sianz let's say my geog mcqaround 37. i need 66 for a1(impossible i tink) man iwan at least b3... around 55?(still impossible.) DIE LE. smoked too much

Worst of all. i tied question 2 infront. what a GREAT impression it gonna give to the marker? and i took 15 mins for me to choose my 4 questions

to digress a little, my sch is so f up. wth charged me 5 bucks to photocopy my entry proof when i nv bring. wth onli 1 page LORH. wth plus i go get distinctions for them they go charge me 5 bucks. WTH MAN. i wanna complain!

back to exams shittiness. omg physics i -2,-3 le. wth

1. the radiation its 140 neutrons not 142 :(
2. the stupid ramp question and car. its times height not plank length!
3. the 100 degree measure wif wad? i sued boiling water but sum pple say steam?? (gay!

den come paper 2. wth i wanna sue cambridge/moe. so much explaining question. den marks allocation is bs. 3 marks 4 a simple Equation and calculations. den wth 3 marks for brownian motion when there's nth to WRITE abt it. i smoked so much. esp in copper part

GG NO RE. die i tink my ssh also cannot get a1. OMG U SXuor! lolz.. geog probably failed. physics probably kicked the bucket
shld arm my self wif brush and broom learn how to clean toilet and sweep road le

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 8:32 PM

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:::Monday, November 15, 2004:::

'Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over'

'No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
to be like me'

'Everybody always gave you
what you wanted
You never had to work it was
always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like'

'welcome to my life'

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 7:58 PM

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hell man. my parents are quarreling over finanial problems again. i am in the computer room and they are in the living room which is outside the computer room. can hear every stuff they say. :'(

i am like so useless infront of comp cannot do anything to help. man i confirm downgrading within months le. max 1 year. unless strike 4d AND toto..

I wanan cry. and screw u xh. go off when i wanan cry to u abt my problems. go play ur #@$@# mapledunnowadshit

i wanna BE FREAKING RICH. i dun wanna haf financial problems. i wanan BE A RICH KID. sianz if the stockmarket goes burst in the near future, i will be on the streets collecting old newspapers.

man the more i hear their voices, the more i dun wanna spend money taking up archery during holidays get new comp take expensive iq test. but i been wanting all these. plus alot of stuff i want to haf like mp3 xbox ps2 ex clothes ex stuff ex accessories i nv haf but i want and i nv want to ask lorh.

FREAK LA, i tink i shld start a 'changjie donation fund'

life sux.

'why the hell you gotta make things so complicated???' avril lavinge
'somewhere i belong, i wanan feel, i wanna heal, i want to....' linkin park
'everyday pple dying pple crying' black eye peas
'bring me to life.....' evanescence
'i'll make a wish take a chance make a change and (try to) breakaway' kelly clarkson
'welcome to my life' simpleplan

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 1:05 AM

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:::Saturday, November 13, 2004:::

wth i got smashed by this
http://www.iqtest.dk/main.swf

i only got 130! way below my p3 score.. haizzz.. either i grown dumber or just out of practice
man wasted so much time the first few questions :(

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 6:41 PM

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11/40 of the amath questions down. OGOGGOOGOG

btw. AFTER MUCH consideration and deliberation. i finally asked the amath answers from angelique(well i got a bonus got emath p1 also). well well, they are made by the RI school and thus would be a trustful source

aT first. i tot i minus 15 from my own calculations. den i considered OHNO! what if i see the answer scheme and i minus 35? budden ok.. fine... since i sent lucas the file and he minused 13.. i was like LET ME HAF THE #@$@# courage to know my marks. slowly checking.

first 5 questiosn -1. den DOWN fall. muz be becaz in exam after i did 5 questions i was over complacent tot would thrash the papear. so -4 -2 -3 here and dere.

finally -13! so 67/80 BETTER THAN EXPECTED CALCULATIONS. shit still not 85% need 85% to be safe of a1

gogo

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 1:21 AM

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:::Thursday, November 11, 2004:::

The burning QUESTION!

There are only two opportunities that you can take your iq test by mensa in a lifetime. That's what my mum found out yesterday.. well well, i took once in p3. the max score for the test was 148. i got 1XX. i dunno shld i take once more after exams or nt. REALLY in a dilema. would i be stupider neext time? would i be smarter next time?? i havent been practicing my brain recently too. haizz. but ihaf a dream. a dream that no 1 else have. a dream that 1 day i ..........(cannot say or else kena labbelled as a 'dreamer' or 'arrogant' or 'rubbish thinking')

most prob i see the test that i take wad's the max iq i can score on it first.. den consider my options

in the mean time. 1r1r7 week LEFT!

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 1:22 PM

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:::Monday, November 08, 2004:::

AT LAST. after 72 long freaking hours of no internet.. i am BACK! muahahha :P man singtel so messed. called them up on sat. den earliest they could come to check is todae. wth! then it's thier prob also sum line problem outside the hosue.. haizz ... mum went to lodge complain why the service so useless and slow!

let's start wif sour things. man a math i minus another few to -14 le. i took back the paper todae. budden i dun wanan check it until maybe after o levels 1 question per day. nah i doubt i wont even look thru it. maybe just glance thru and see where else i could haf minused

In the mean time...

i am on my way to 100/100 for my paper 2 e math. i am counting my chickens b4 the hens even get mated. i mean. i havent got a single mistake yet. checked wif frenz still KOSONG wrong. damn i rock :P *hugz oneself* OMG!@#! so gay haha.

emath paper 2 was quite tiring i think. had 25 mins left after 2.5 hrs. brought my own clock inside. kia su haha. the working all i had to double check. quite ma fan and draining. but reap the fruits of labour.!!!

the onli way i wont get a1 is conspiracy! becaz i wrote in pencil on my paper on two small questions that i shld haf done another method as it was easier. like i shld just haf used this rule instead blah blah. haizz. nvm if the examiner buai song wif alternative method which still gif correct answer(and i wrote in pencil saying i shld haf done easier method) den i cry lorh. hahah. nvm larh wont 1

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time to frekaing mug for geog mcq for wed. den 5 day break!

things to do.
1. update blog links! i think for siau xi and ray just use same picture can le.

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:::Friday, November 05, 2004:::

holy f8888.

-12 and counting.

this was teh paper when every1 walked out say damn ez.

trying to tell myself that acsbr has this attitude of saying its ez budden come out results suxor.

i am afaid its true and they will mod up a1

-3 for reverse differentiaion(though i think -2 but STRICT!)
-3 for area(i tot shoelace method i dunno how to freaking do..)
-1 for careless in binomial
-2 for the 3cos4x. i got 3 answers. but how come my freaking y value is 5. just realise shld be at least 8 lorh
-2 for functions. got 1 question i used -b+-b2-4ac /2a.. no 1 used.. my answer was messed i think.

I MUZ tell myself not to trust acsbr opinion that the paper is ez.

PLEASE TELL ME sum1 that i didnt make anymore mistakes. i know i didnt. 69 i duno safe or nt. plus p2 would be harder got more stuff i duno of

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:::Wednesday, November 03, 2004:::

omg. i think my english hod mrs kathryn koh (to be vp of acsbr) should go bet on big sweep! out of 5 topics that came out in o levels, 3 were like 'done' b4?

the parents whether both go out work when child young and shopping centre came out in prelims

wad's more amzing is that! there was this expository topic 'flight' guess wad??? as my teacher was teaching how to do expository writing this year, all of us had to choose a topic to practice. so happenly several people chose the topic 'flight' in a list of topics. and further more, my teacher went thru the topic 'flight' in class! showing several gd compos of it and how to expository writing on it. w00t! shld go play 4d, big sweep and toto!

75% did flight in my sch i think. tat's gd for me becaz i did the parents thigny. i got 22 or 23 during prelims! and i wrote better todae :P:P hahahahz. plus i think all the pro students wrote flight. hahaz if cambridge see all the flight compos all the same i think veri hard to score lorh, so whether our teacher actually went thru the topic i wonder beneficial to us ornt. nonetheless, distinctions rate in acsb will up up and away!

first time! compre! i think i can get 5/5 for vocab. i mean. prelim mid year i got 1,2? right now 5! 1,23,4 hi 5! ^5

the words are effectively,angle,primitive,banished and impact

onli thing i 'might' get wrong is primitive and banished. here are my answres in respect to the passage

effectively- no doubt
angle- perspective
primitive- ancicent and old-fashioned
impact- consequences
banished- taken away

ehhe. confident!!1 summary i saved 1 hr. draft and redraft. compre was tricky but nonetheless cna make it.

SHOUT OUTS!

thankyou to all who sms-ed me encouragement when i sms msgs of sadness! ty! shld i mention names? okok they are
b,m,t,m,e i think. hahahaz

emath

i swear i am going to slaughter u paper1!

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:::Tuesday, November 02, 2004:::

never haf i felt like this. this split up = s h i t. geddit?

i nv thought i would experience this word called stress. stress = no rest.

i mean. after exam. my frenaz all told me, u were so lucky u nv kena caught for 'cheating'.

i was freaking talking to myself so freaking loudly i tot i whispered to myself only. tables wif radius 5 could hear. omg. i better control. i better be confident for this not to happen again.

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i am afaid. scared. tks for all the encouragement for those who haf gave me.

i need my a1s. anythnig other than a1 is a failure to me. presently i haf no confidence. i dun even know whether ss i can make it or nt. i really need help man. stressss.s..s... tml the subject i got b4 eng for prelim. onli subject tat can be improved. the rest of mine onli can deprove. I MUZ DO WELL. I MUZ SHADDUPin exam hall

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actually deep down, i am just put down by all these pressure. the goals i set for myself. IT is realistic but yet in a way impossible. ifeel sad when i dun perform. this is o level. it's the time i need to perform. i am afaid that i cant reproduce my stuff. i am afaid that i wont do well. i get shocked when i see pple rejoicing their 'good' day at o levels today while i just ... 'okok' look. 24/7 i am thinking to myself, this is nt the f***king time to screw it up. i muz be the best. i haf this thought. embrodded into me. unremovable. however. it. just.screws

if tml eng sux and i dun feel confident to change b4->a1. i would really want to want to want to feel so upset that onli i will know tml

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what the heck?

sometimes i blame myself. why the freak did i go get 5 a1s for prelims . i shld haf gotten 5 a2s, eng b4 still get go jc. den right now i would haf more motivation of getting my a1s. writing this now, i am unsure of my a1 man. i mean yes though i minus like a few here and dere, i wan guarantee. i cannot guarantee myself now.

ss 50% history 50%. had ss today. i wanan kill myself. firstly i was rushing for time the whole god damn shit. i wrote like 8-9 pages. why did i write so much?? why am i so freakign luo suo.

source based is going to pull everything down. let me start wif structured first. all three questions i spotted. budden the industrialisation(qn3) i lz to learn so onli left switzerland and conflict and diplo. i shld haf freaking doen the qn4 lorh. its like my whole sch 70% switzerland 29% industrialisation.

i did switzerland... haizzz. i think first essay can 11-12/12.. second essay i rushing for time shitty conclusion. plus i wrote it in the format of international recognition most important. den 2nd para international vs high incomes. 3rd para internaional vs banking. den 4th conclusion 1.5 page :( compared to 2.5 page for question a. man i think i wrote question b in a correct format lorh. those pple just explain all three of them 1 paragraph each why important i think will gg :( budden this is my first time writing like this lorh. compare point against point. out of 13 i happy wif 10-11? ok 10 i get i think becaz first time trying not sure how high.

so wad if my structured can get 22??? so???/? my sourced based :(

omg for question a) the cartoonist thigny i wrote

1. pirate portrayal.. bad looks so doesnt support
2. bullying thingy
3. sacarsm. omg i just kena demoralished by angelique. i suppose to write that it is irony that argentina wanna anti colonise when they are colonise. i wrote that argentina is anti colonising something that isnt colonised at all except for the britain flag. i nv explain clearly lorh..

den my freaking point 1 i think so far i onli wrote tat. come on i didnt see wrongy. that fat person is dressed up like a pirate!

out of 5 let's say sway -2

den compare and contrats b) die le. i quote from content. budden i rushing the tone and purpose i nv f***ing quote. i onli wrote the tone and the purpose thingy lorh nv put the quotations like wad i did for content. so screwed

out of 7 let's say -3

den third question the thrathcer 1 ok i tink can full marks

6/6

den omg last question. it's reliabilty and uselessness lorh. i wrote both. budden i forgot to show the f***King limitations of uselessness. i always do this during practice lorh. f***king stress.den my reliabilty at least slightly better

out of 7 - 2?

wah 40 prediction. but that's nt safe. plus i think i bluffing myself in the allocation of marks.

sianz let's minus another 5 more

omg 35 :( den sway minus 1 more. omg 34 :( die le. time to go top of the building

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