:::Tuesday, November 02, 2004:::
never haf i felt like this. this split up = s h i t. geddit?

i nv thought i would experience this word called stress. stress = no rest.

i mean. after exam. my frenaz all told me, u were so lucky u nv kena caught for 'cheating'.

i was freaking talking to myself so freaking loudly i tot i whispered to myself only. tables wif radius 5 could hear. omg. i better control. i better be confident for this not to happen again.


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i am afaid. scared. tks for all the encouragement for those who haf gave me.

i need my a1s. anythnig other than a1 is a failure to me. presently i haf no confidence. i dun even know whether ss i can make it or nt. i really need help man. stressss.s..s... tml the subject i got b4 eng for prelim. onli subject tat can be improved. the rest of mine onli can deprove. I MUZ DO WELL. I MUZ SHADDUPin exam hall

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actually deep down, i am just put down by all these pressure. the goals i set for myself. IT is realistic but yet in a way impossible. ifeel sad when i dun perform. this is o level. it's the time i need to perform. i am afaid that i cant reproduce my stuff. i am afaid that i wont do well. i get shocked when i see pple rejoicing their 'good' day at o levels today while i just ... 'okok' look. 24/7 i am thinking to myself, this is nt the f***king time to screw it up. i muz be the best. i haf this thought. embrodded into me. unremovable. however. it. just.screws

if tml eng sux and i dun feel confident to change b4->a1. i would really want to want to want to feel so upset that onli i will know tml


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