My life- A Roller Coaster

:::Sunday, September 11, 2005:::

i dun wan to blame any1 but myself for my loss against pan ke. i feel that i didnt lose to sum1 who has better micro den me. i mean first game the mini footie war when he hitting my base. i lost ZERO footies he lost 2? its like he brought footie but forgot to ungrp ya? den came back i get the kill. plus i managed to micro lotsa footie wif low health back? sighz its more of like my strat that lost. turtle rock first game. i went for breakers casters. he went for knights. from wad i know my strat should win. but i dunno how to coutner when he got knights. i mean i got slow and everything but just nt enuf breakers in the end :( sighs sighs. well when i couldnt win when i pushed his base i knew was lost. i anyhow played and even lost my MK to creeps. sighz. i played on for a while but didnt make it :(

i took a risk in the 2nd game. i chose lost temple. i went to go for fast expo. everything went wrong. he didnt even creep at all just harassed straigth wif footies and wes and archmage. split his units up. sighz took PRETTY long finally for me to get expo up. towered it like 6-7. made mistake made them too near together den couldnt repair bigger surface area when he attacked. DEN WORST thing is i stucked my AM in my baes. couldnt go to expo and defend it until it was like all the towers down. sighz. defended footies wif priest super hard to kill. towers cant even kill em... sighz. stupid archmage got stucked had to cut those wood. by the time i tink its like i use footies wif towers trying to kill an army? cant. den lost expo. tried to mass air.p (this time he went for dual sanctuary = dual casters, changed from game 1 where he went knights). the air worked for a while. but the hero level difference made it all. and i nv really got into the game.

i am so pissed i took such a stupid risk. shld haf just played my dual breakers which wad i do best (i cant remember even FAST expanding against a hu in lost temple. i usually do it against other races. further i onli started practicing fast expo a afew days ago..) well itook a risk. got thrashed wif it. i'm more upset wif the first game.

well did i say i'm more upset wif the first game? nah i'm more upset abt 2 stuff now. i cant mention 1 of them. and i would gladly mention the other. i'm qutie irate at my cell leader dre. its a very long story and i spent at least 1.5 hrs on the phone wif michelle on this.

god gave me the ability to formulate strategy, haf thinking abilities, haf gd reaction speed etc etc. he gave me the ability to just think and ya? mensa? chess player? and i view playing war3 as sumthing which would showcase my talent. well, dre+michelle+couple of others just differ. they are on different frequencies. i know the game contains spells/creatures etc etc. but they just dunno that i dun get care abt those stuff. i treat it as CHESS. like formulate strategies etc etc. plus all the hand micro and reaction speeds

let me place a sms i typed to mich here

'I'm just gonna say that i find nothing wrong with what i did. There is freedom of choice and i made my choice to go for the competition and not for service. And i didnt do anything against god's will. any path you take you can choose right or wrong(this is wad drey told me a few weeks ago), i view myself going for a competition that will showcase the talent god given to me. Furthermore, let's say its a chess tourney. If you stay or go, god will support either way. God knows i treat it like a mind(thinking of strategies) game and i dun get influenced. Well i think i lost a lot of respected for drey. Plus i feel maybe you all on just on different frequencies as me. i mean you all talked to me about this. Yet have u all praayed to god to reveal to you anything regarding my scenario? You said it was a convinction, but have you asked god about the way i feel?'

tat's pretty much? the way dre acted after youth service just totally irates me. instaed of like talking to me abt my decision and such. just walked around talking to his other sch frenz etc. at least mich was there?

i was so hyped up during youth worship experience that i know i'm going to do well in my match later. i believe that god gonna bring me through the game whatever the result. YET what gave dre and michelle the right to just bring me down liddat? its like i felt so gd den after that they just took that feeling away. its not like i dun wan ur opinions. its the way u put it. and u just dun see the scenario as i do.

i alreadi promised myself and my parents iwont touch much of war3 after hols. becaz i gonna mug for promos. its like yea need to study get 2 s papers dist. plus my parents want 4 As. yes i gonna stop war3. whether permanently i dunno. prolly? no idea. budden i'm just gonna re-emphasised that it wasnt due to them telling me so. yea i'm thick headed

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 12:19 PM

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:::Saturday, September 10, 2005:::

ok i got mixed feelings now

round 1 of war3 tourney has ended. the grp stages.

here are the results

if u cant see. u haf to like move ur mouse to the buttom right and expand it. . slowly find my name and grp:P:P

ok. i got a 3 person grp. tianxia.disc nv come. so left wif me and asiahappyman. ithought he was NE all along. but guess wad... surprise surprise!! he is human! haha i tink better for me. first game b4 i started i super scared. i prayed a prayer when the game was loading. the starting of the game was bad. i killed a footie when he tried to rush me. den i lost my footie to him! its like i ran it to creeps but forgot to wack creeps! den i lost another w/o paying attention! but i fended off his rush when my BOLD MK came out! stun the firelord! and surrounded it and raped it:P thank god

i was getting complacent. thinking aiyah easy opponent la. b4 second game i walked out of my seat. went toilet. after that i saw weisheng landon shaun come to support me!! cool:P:P(cow hussein and ann alreadi here le) den me being complacent. i started 2nd game. screwed it badly at the start. first he fast expo i dunno. den i go his base harass he come my base harass. i shld haf tpied! or defended my militia by runing them away better. budden i didnt. had to tp in the end and lost alot of militia and footies. den suddenly i saw this blue dot beside a gold mine. click on it SAW A TOWN HALL. i was like @#$@#$@# ok tat's it probably lost. for the next 10 mins i was like ok try to salvage. 1 gold mine vs 2 gold mine. played realli well after that. budden i lost becaz of gold difference. i bet i killed more units budden the units keep streaming in due to his gold. :(

well i think i konw the reason why! i didnt pray! so the start of 3rd game. i was like super nervous. dunno wad map to choose(loser choose map) i chosed twisted becaz i tink hardest map to fast expo becaaz i will show know if he did. den i know who ever wins this game gets thru to next stage. when the game was loading. PERFECT PLAY sia. whole game i was dominating. i scouted his fast expo early. screwed his archmage to teleport out of my base when he harass(distraction to put expo up) den i went to attack his expo(b4 towers are up) timing gd gd. den his archmage got killed by my mk after a long chase. den i go back kill. attack again. GAME OVER. my tech advantage and unit teir 2 won! and of course my micro :P and surroudn micro! :P but tks to god.

went to walk to ws ls st and cow. den i met huimin yiling and samantha later. at nydc ::P:P:P took a few photos. cool hm gave me a coin saver box? lolz :P:P ty!

let's see sumting funny

lolz. when i entered channel singapore todae. i saaw tagan asking sum1 if he was me! carrot :P:P hahahahahahz :P lolz funny.

ok here comes the mixed part. i just checked the schedule. they moved the next roudn games to tonight 830 PM. OH NO. moved from tml lorh(stated on webbie few days ago suppose to be tml). well. sux? becaz i dun wanan miss church. i suppose to go 2 services todae. youth at 5. and young adults at 730. and i haf to missed my main service(the latter) if i go play at 830PM plus inot confident of beating pan ke? saw how he raped wonky lorh. sighz

dun ask me wad i am going to do. havent decided

in the mean while it waas liz bdae yesterdae. gave her an EXPENSIVE CARD :P and sum branded slippers lorh. i didnt know wad to buy so just bought that. haha
choc cake was nice.

i was trying to add as if i didnt do well. den let fedora or liz to like tell me 'changjie its ok la onli a game' and like console me so much. den spring surprise saying i got thru. but nv reached there. stupoid!! :( they like say 1 sentence onli! sighz

choc cakje was nice!!

food was nice!!!

happy bdae liz!

0 comments posted by blurblock:) 10:23 AM

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:::Thursday, September 08, 2005:::