My life- A Roller Coaster

:::Tuesday, March 30, 2004:::

sianz.. how crappy dae todae is.. everything was going fine till stupid dm muz go bring up stupi chair incident.. missed lik 1.5 periods of ENG becaz of it.. sianz... and yar.. daoing = the best method of screwing sum1...

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hmmmz, waiting for elgin rite now.. gonan aT wif him hopefully.. so i guess may be i wil ltake sum time now to blog.. the weeked was fun. went bowling on sat evening after geog thingy at acsi.. hmm lolz honour to rep sch in geog? nah i'm onli the supporter.. lolz.. but got free goodies like a carribena file etc... lolz~ sum pple also just go kop more carribena.. damn cute k?. went bowling afterwars wif myron eliz j loh brandy tin wc xh and wl.. hmmm after a few games we decided to haf acsb vs the rest lolz.. 3 on 3.. but we lsot :( so had to do 60 pushups whole teamm. :( nvm.. its for e fun.. went imm eat at mac after tat went home at like 1100? lolz but i live so near dad fetch!! lolz!!

hmm surprised when i got home!! i was like asking my dad in the car how was the dog seeing, he like nv reply so i ... den when i reached home i took off my socks put down back abt to go behind wash legs when i SAW THE GOLDEN RETRIEVER!! damn cute kaz? 3 mths old onli.. palyed wif it lolz

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hmm test just came back.. got 20/50 i didnt bother to stardie plus the teacher is screwed.. she daos me vice versa.. i bet she anyhow mark wan chen ju zi 1.. but nvm WHO CARES! i will prove to her i roxor? in mid year? lolz... speaking of mid yr its onli 30+ daes left

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:::Monday, March 29, 2004:::

lol new look tks to lms!! thankiew!!

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:::Friday, March 26, 2004:::

hmmm... at last END OF STUDI WEEK / CAMP.. Whew .. school ended like 320 everydae.. cant stand it man :(

todae ws was a fucker.. i tink he gonna 4ever be man...
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gotta cut down my sms le.. i got my phone confiscated for like 3 daes??? becaz i exceeded by 500 sms again.. from 20-22 i felt naked w/o my phone :( sobs.... ok gd todafe i onli send 2.. i tink i exceeded this month le :(
hmm back to sum positive stuff, bbq on 17th april? i dunno man.. jusst wanna haf 1 for fun laighter peacve joy... gonna work on it.. gogogo!!!

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hmm i gotta sum motivation for o's le.. its like i recevie like so much work (i mean its nt work but work if u wanna do it) and i told myself i been slacking and need to start doing.. gotta be special for the rest of the people.. do work u aint assigned for etc.. come on i gonna get 6 pts for o lelves kay? i WILL DO IT 6 POINnts here icome... (dream are reality if they come true) and it better be a reality... YES I CAN DO IT~ acjc here i come to

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tml haf sum geog thing at ntu.. den gonna place soccer at jace house.. morning i wanna pla y war3 tourney.. man HOW bz i am man.. nvm sure got time to relax/studie? lolz.. chill...

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2nd last para.. just gonna retok abt subs i gonna do this weekend and todae

geog
eng
chinese
e math
chem

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time for some sayings

'Time passes and goes. It doesnt turn back or waits for you.'
'Friends are life long.'
'Too early, too late. When is right?'
'Winning isnt everything'
'Losing isnt anything'

man these few i type so lame.. just cannot cokme out wif anything

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:::Sunday, March 21, 2004:::

'In order to succeed, one must strive hard and not just idle aroudn thinking he can do it.'

Frankly speaking, i didnt prepare for nat indivs at all. I was unhappy about 6 pts and 23rd placing but come to think of it, i should be glad of what i haf received. It's like regretting that i didnt prepare and thats like too blardie late to do so. Regrets are late. They are meant to be. I could haf done much worst but thankfully i got 6/23. I cant regret anytmore i shld be thankful!! of whati haf!

* ' Quitting now might be silly, but quitting later would b sillier?'

I really dunno man. given that ASEAN was a super bad impression on me wif team sg nt even caring and nt taking a photo of me at a board it tells me a lot. same for justin. sg vs mas too man. wad 2 do? i dunno i dun even know y e thought of rep mensa in interclub coems to my mind

* 'Time to try new stuff. Bordem is one thing. Curiousity is another while having is IT.'

I sort of decided about wad else i wanna include in my life le. its getting too boring.. maybe getting a fren or 2 to bring me to church and expose my self to other religinos.. ps i free thinkinger... mayb trying a new hobby or a new sprot? mountiain climbing? biking? dunno man i tink blood donatino would be a nice idea too.. maybe listening to songs of wad some of my frenz does or maybe realli persuing war3. i dun wan to yi shi wu chen man. i wan to try everything available!! durgs? lol i wun

* 'Does success of other people makes you jealous? or izzit meant to gif u encouragement?'

There is no ans to this. Frenz/pple i know are achieving so much in their own stuff while i haf nth. thigns i wanna do well doesnt happen. why does other pple sucfces make me feel jealous? i should tink of itas an encouragement.. GRR!!!

~thinking~

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:::Saturday, March 20, 2004:::

sianz... ok screwed 23 prizes get 23rd.. 8-27 all 6 pts i got 6 pts
ok i sux at chess.. nv won anything.. doubt i iwll ever will. shld i quit?! maybe.. maybe nt.. no time to tink yet.. maybe b4 i slp later..

tks andrew for draw i was white he was clearly better palyed.. he prearranged draw i took rrisk and i got prize exactly.. tks man always remembering the favour

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'every1 suceeds xcept u. wad logic?'
'pple do better than u, u feel jealous. tats why u shld quit?'
'or iz tat called motivation?!?'

'sianz jack of all trades master of none.. ( i mean loser of all)'
101% true.. its like so true man.. always 2nd class in everything.. i am like so damn LoSeR... man GRRR!!! rating dropped also to aroudn 20 pts.. man i realli tink chess \=\ me man

lol todae me myron tin brandy (liz?) were hafing a fun time chatting in foodmore.. damn blardie joke man.. xh and wc.. lolz.. can jump from asean to chpt 6/7 to dancing to chinese to everything.. man 40+30? i tink if we '5' didnt leave it would be XXX+30 man... how amazing! guiness!!.. but seriously its gonna go highly red. and as frenz i tink i gotta do sumthing wif the others to like nt make my mei and wc go too deep(yar tat.?.. who knows?)? ok sianz hopefully xh doesnt read....

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:::Thursday, March 18, 2004:::

first time in like 4 daes blogging.. lost the momentum of it.. nvm.. lets get down to the basic stuff tat happened during the first dae of indiv.. it sarks basically

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1st round.. played sum patzer 2nd fastest u16 to win

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2nd round- the worst game i palyed man.. its like i palyed a person from victoria won him 2 yrs ago in 8 moves and his rating sux.. and i lost when i was up like 1 rook i tink.. wtf man.. its so blardie insulting.. and it was like the last board to finish too.. I LOST TO ROY LAU? man i dun belive this.... it SARKS omg... i nearly wanted to cry man.. i wanted to try the pieces ACROSS THE ROOM OMG!! SUX

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3rd round- played against myjunior clement koh.. one of e fastest board to finish.. he palyed an opening i like playinmg against got curhsed in a few moves.. but he nv resign..

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2/3 sux.. u wanna get 7.5/9 CHANGJIE U SUX!.. u wanan get top 3 and u are onli 19th seed.. ARE U DREAMING? WAKE UP MAN. WTF U THINKING<< U BLARDIE SUX LOST TO ROY AND STILL WANNA GET 7.5? DREAM ON

NO I CAN DO IT!! ! ARGGG I FEEL LIKE SHOUTING NOW!! WHOLE NEIGHBOURHOOD CAN HEAR!! SHALL I DO IT???..

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ok relax.. chilll tok abt after games.. played soccer 1 plus hr.. man irealli do sux.. played like crap passed like sai shoot like shit.. nvm soccer aint me i aint nothing.. i mean I(ME) = NOTHING
went lanning becaz xh mei wanan she wanna try.. after tat she thinks it sarks ahahahha.. she tot it was cool.. wtf man.
went dinna wif liz xh tin wl wc cow.. newton after tat wanan paly at cairnhil lbut den undercontruction... man the aftermath of chess was ok.. chess itself SARKS..

1/2 pt onli u can afford to drop.. can u do it? PROVE TO THE CHESS SCENE IN THE NEXT TWO DAES!!

'Wad are you' - ZCJ

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:::Sunday, March 14, 2004:::

hmmm.. just came back from wedding dinner.. super tired.. but i wanna war3.. but ELGIN not online.. what is this man?

start of studi camp.. this is stupid start of holidaes = start of studi camp.. and i du neven haf a single dae of rest this holidaes.. except the sundaes :( t.t

mon-wed school
thrus-sat chess

how blardie stupid.......................................................

come on man. indiv coming u wan 7.5 u can do it../.. its impossible tat's why its a goal..

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brandi realli pisses pple off man. . itink he is screwed and gonna disown him as my dog.. my parents thik he is arrogant eliz thinks he is screwd too so does xh.. xh parents thinks he is bu yao lian.. man how shameless can he get? even called my house leave msg on my maid to tell me call him back sms wadw dun get angry .. realli bu yao lian.. balls@him

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really need to start getitng my titration process working welll.. my numbers are like so freaking diff from others. man its like 50% of ur practical.. u gotta do well cj............................. work now suffer later? or suffer now and work later? or suffer and suffer? looks like its the latest for now....

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got tuition tml. eliz wanna hold sum outing to sentosa.. but i dunno who's going and whether i shld go or nt.. see first tml la

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:::Thursday, March 11, 2004:::

on thrid law... Action and reaction forces...

come on la if sum1 throws a chair at u? u throw back ritE? logical man.. tang shld go f*ing gnd man..... say cowards? i tink the relieve teacher more coward man... go report secretly without even saying a single shit

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deduct 1 from 100 and tat wont make a difference.. sumthing i tot abt.. deviated from other thoughts.........

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Indiv is just onli a week away.. moment of truth is nearing to me. i realli wanna know where i stand.. whether chess is in me.. whether i shld continue wif it seriously or nt...... anxious curious and scared..... wan to know but also dun wan to know.... if i dun do well, its like a serious tot tat i might just nt play it competatively le.. becaz in my u16 age grp if i am so sucky? wad more against other pple?..... so hopefuly i can gif out of my best and do well... REMEMBER GOAL NO 5: Give ur abilities to the best.. changjie dun disappont urself

home groudn advantage... make use of it.. win win win win win iwni wni nwi nwin iwn iwni nwinwi! dreams are dreams.. goals are goals.... Beleive in urself, for no one belives in u

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whole holidae is bz.. no free dae except sundaes(2)... sat,mon-wed got school thrus -sat got indiv.. realli wanna cry man.. dun even haf daes to rest........ but its for ur future.. .strive HARDER!

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i tink me gonna end off this update wif sum famous quotes and self quotes..

'Ability may get you to the top, but it's character that keeps you there.'
'We live a life by what we get, we make a life by what we give.'
'I havent failed, i have found 10,000 ways that don't work.'

My Own~

'Dreams are fantasies. The way i achieve them is to mould thier foundation with my hands, develop it with my mind and contruct it with my abilities.'
'Success comes with failure, but don't fail too much. You will have no motivation left.'
'Only losers fail, Only winners succeed. But only acheivers fail and succeed. What about failed acheivers? They are one step better than losers. So try harder to succeed!'

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:::Wednesday, March 10, 2004:::

Man life sux recently.. so damn bad. everything is like so negative man.. dunno how to explain all of them

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Man utd could nt qualify todae tks to a stupid last min goal they conceded.. fking stupid man.. its like destined to go thru last 8 till sum stupid free kicked happened and they conceded at 90th min to make the score line 1-1 over all 2-3(2-2 away on goal rulz man u qualify).. super sad.. sum more scholes disallowed goal for offside is bullshit.. there were 3 players PLAYING him onside... referee kayu.. haizz.

'Failures always comes in at the last minute. Success Comes a minute later'

Quite true eh? i mean veri true............

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also regarding abt the stupid chess life of mine.. i told myself just e other dae tat this indiv is just gonna be my final test.. i make or break at this tourney.. top 5 is nt tat hard... (maybe its hard) but den i dun wan to forever be no2. forever be in sum1's shadow. i paly to succeed.. i dun wan to paly nt to succeed... wad for play when u aint gd? fun is another factor.. winning is another factor.. success is the KEY FACTOR. so its like 7 daes more to indiv... u can do it man.. top5... veri unrealistic u ask any1.. budden pls trust urself..

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hmmmmmmmmm d2d is also screwed.. ws is also screwed.. whole world is screwed.. unfairness always comes into play.. justice is awalys just e oppositie side of ur palm........ frenz are nt frenz when they dun listen to words of advice.. frenz are fkers when they just screw u over for smal lstuff... frenz wad is the true meaning of them??

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man war3 keep hanging.. won 2 wif elgin.. lost 1 becaz i hang lost 1 solo becaz i hang..time for new comp? parents wil lnv get me wad for i tink of 1?

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:::Monday, March 08, 2004:::

'One tries to help but den one does nt get appreciated.'
'One gets negative feedback instead.'

These 2 stuff always happens in life.. especially on arrogant stubborn pple.. looks like i wanted to help sum1 but den it wasnt be accepted.. quite stupid man.. influencing sum1 to be gd cant work? wad logic.. sum pple just think they are e king of e world..

and ya tks eliz for making e blog :):):)

man during chess we were palying games all along on e comp(i mean me) who cares abt chess? i am just a failure... :(
nv succeed always fail......................

and stupid d2d i dun even wanna do.. ding is a mad ass!!

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ok screw my parents they are fucking idiots... think tat i damn gd life haf all the thigns in life when i haf none think i damn fortunate when i damn deprived.. think that i muz mug all the time which is stupid.. parents are screwed.. of all pple these pple are my parents? wtf man.. how fucking stupid.. wad a stupid quarrel.. wad an knowledgeable quarrel.. just reconfirmed tat my lfie sux

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:::Sunday, March 07, 2004:::

hmmm man i just realised so much stuff abt my ambitions and everything.. everything is so haywire

we start wif sum stupid retarded ambition of going to sea games.. i tink tat's pretty too wild.. tell tat to any1 and they will luff........ changjie wad thinking u? u are a ptzer who onli scored 4/7.. u know tat sux. u dun haf time u are too old and weak... u ARE always too late in everything.. sian realli gotta tink abt so much stuff

8a1s in o lvs.. abit of too much again.. wtf u thinking? u dun even do work or even strive to do work or excel well ur results have been super sucky.. wad stupid goals and dreams.... man i aint jesus and jesus cant even achieve this crap.. but i reall iwan it but its impossible? ARGGHHHHH

war3 tourney? i nt even practicing for WCG.. i go there confirm thrash once again no time too sucky.. too far behind.... man WHY WHY WHY... suxor..

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challengers todae 1.5/2 drew wif clifford and won xaiver chua.. wanted 2 to get 4.5/7(min. for all tourney..) too bad tat didnt happen.. everything feels damn stupid. .got 10 bucks onli i tink.. man changjie wad doing u.. chess isnt for u.. start stoning or look for alternatives

GRRRR.. GET A GOD DAMN LIFE

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:::Saturday, March 06, 2004:::

hmmm so many things to blog abt.. havent blogged in 2 daes.. man looks like i gonna miss out sum parts of my life during these periods..

forget chess forget the stupid games u lost.. u lost against andrew in a can draw position and u lost to MOSSES SOH.. man u shld seriously slap urself man zcj wtf u doing.. losing to a patzer.... forget abt the win against prador dunno wad crap name u haf 2,5/5 u DIDNT WAN to get this low.. u sux man........... FREAKIGN gay.. and man... nvm chess isnt everything hopefully...

lessons to learn : maybe i shld memorise openings.. i just cant play french.. maybe i haf to change.. just keep losing or drawing wif it :( i tink i playing rvd tml.. nt sure nv check pairings.. 4.5/7 .. tats my target now!!! COME ON U CAN DO IT....

hmm man xh mei was like threathening me lol.. and i was like telling her lotsa fake stuff so tat she wun realli know e truth... man budden did i tell her the truth? lloll.... nt sure realli... when theres gd there is evill... tat is how kennedy got assasinated... BUT den u are kennedy......... so it would be cool lol..... hmm, shld i start changing me blog ad? nvm just leave arnd.. trust mei k? yar u shld.. lol

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Ruwshed to class party after sat game.. todaes last game.. won fast .. went there aroudn 910.. dunk meself into e pool(of course i had achange of clothes)...... nvm get down to serious stuff.. took sum class photos.. damn cool...

but den CHANGJIE u ARE GD U ARE GREAT.. u ddid NOT DRINK like wad sum of ur claslsmates did.. u did nt fall into temptation!!! man i tot ws was a gd christain but he drank.. so many pple did.. at least i walkedo ut of e room knowing i am guai... but den there were many pple who didnt drink too.. but DEN u gotta mix so its ok for ur frenz to drink? just dun drink? ya.. and ya foudn out 1 of me classmates smoked... u r cool.. nt falling into temptation... anyway tks alex for e party

and CHEERS to those who didnt drink!! the fun in the pool rox!

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:::Friday, March 05, 2004:::

In school library comp blogging now.. man its freezing down here now..

hmm lets get down to wad happened yesterdae.. i realli wanna blog everydae of my life :) recalling wad happened at tat time and dae a yr from now?

hmm thrudae was nt too bad.... man i cant remember wad happened in school yesterdae lol.. onli the game.. oh ya i onli know tat i did damn bad for my histroy.. aroudnm 8 th in my class? tat's quite sucky.. nvm work harder(or play chess harder also can)...

hmm get down to the game at night. i played against the onli lady tat joined the challengers.. an unrated person who just came from china.. so who knows how strong she is man.. i was losing a pawn down all along(to get out of a shitty position) but den tks to sum skill and luck and blunders by heri managed to draw it.. i had sum winning chances in the end though...

hmm fetched brandy home again.. dad told me in future try nt to fetch becaz would be out of e way and take longertime to go.. feel sad for brandy lol..

1.5/2 hmm nt too bad.. wl has 0.. (he screwed big time) brandy 1 wc 1(in qualifier)

gonna play andrew khor tonite wif white.. hoping for e best i am 12th seed he is 7th

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todae fridae sux man.. firstly i didnt do my a math hw and gonnna get zero for it... man 1 bIG fat zero.. luckily its gonna be in the term 2 results.. i gonna do it later aftert typing this bl;og.. and hopefully manage to suck up 2 ving for her to grade it..

2ndly sum stupid misunderstanding happened in canteen.. i was sitting wif mat keith (sam and myron were coming) den i sdtaterd the topic of sum dual citizenship thigny.. we discussed pros and cons blah blah and mat suddenly said tat he can disown singapore citizen ship if he wans to.. bornt in usa.. iwas quite curious and uttered the words 'man did u parents screw up in usa and had to born u out there'.... (ya misunderstood!!!).. i meant tat did mat parents having vacation in usa and tat it was screwed up becaz the mum had to gif birth there.. but sam got the wrong meaning of it and so did most of e others thinking of me as sick and etc tat mat parents HAD sex in usa and bastard child thingy... was like wtf lol.. sam was super angry at me.... fuck him man

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A MaTh is gay~!

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:::Wednesday, March 03, 2004:::

cool man todae challengers 1st round was quite gd..
i won convincingly in like 15 mins? lol... damn cool.. i was 12 th seed fighting sum 20++ seed young boi..
i tink i created chess history for e fastest win??? :):)

if i am correct game went like this

1.Nf3 d5 2. c4 Nf6 3. e3 c6 4. d4 Bf4 5. Bd3 Bxd3 6. Qxd3 e6 7. 0-0 Bd6 8. Nc3 0-0 9. e4 Qb6??? 10. e5 Be7 11. exf6 gxf6?? 12. Bh6 Rd1 13. Nxe5!! c5? 14. Qg3+ Kh8 15. Nxf7#

i was white against sum patzer :) how fun lol

hmm wl was losing when i left.. sac rook for bish for attack which is failing? against ben foo and ben foo got slight counter..
wc i dunno
brandy i dunno , every1 else i dunno lol..

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todae results came back... for a amth chem and geog.. man sux.. totally stinks i tink the rest wil lbe worst

amth 12/21 (my weakest topic? and i tot i failed..)
chem 23/30 (ok ok la.. but made too many reading blunders)
geog 9/20 (WTF can nachi mark properly? every1 got like 9-11..)

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while waiting for challengers spent time in library.. managed to overcome the temptation to go lanning.. esp when ws coems 'begging' u to go.. man i am so strong-willed :)

and ya met amy at scf lol.. went dinner wif her and brandy...... she will be coming to my school tml to colelct sum church stuff if i m correct..

and ya theresa saw me crossing the road to scf at bishan on e bus.. wtf??? den its like gonna spread like wildfire le..

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:::Tuesday, March 02, 2004:::

and ya challengers tml.. so better buck up concentrate.. sleep in class get all e rests.. u need to win first u need to show the chess scene who u r :)..

looks like i gotta be disappointed

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Yesterdae oscars award thigny realli motivated me.. those pple who won the awards realli worked hard for their goals and dreams and succeeded by winning these awards.. further more those tat didnt get it actually worked hard and were given credits for..
so i tot abt it at night and listed 3 dreams and 2 goals.

Dreams are unachievable achievable targets (dreams aint achievable.. they haf been achieved by other pple but nt achieveable by u so its a dream)

DREAMS

1. Sea games rep sg 05
2. O lvs - 8 a1s
3. War3 - local lan tourney

Goals

1. To be a better person
2.Give out abilities to e best

These are all listed in my hp.. it would remind me dae and dae... come on u can do it.. there can be miracles when u believe :)
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Todae became a naughty kid went lanning wif ws and dsww... atfirst palyed jk2 i sucked at it so i swapped to war3.. played solo online and won a 19-1 orc.. (damn cool man.. comp better than the 1 i haf at home...)
and ya i just watched a VOD of koreans playing a clan war in war3.. cool man.....

on e way home met ly.. was wif dsww den saw her stepping into 2 bus i said hi.. she sat in front of me and we chatted lotsa of stuff.. man the things nygh provide realli makes me tink barker is just an ordinary 'lan' school.. they provide lotsa stuff man.. den we toked abt chess etc.. and ya 1 of e main reasons mayli hated i leong.. ya i was like enlightened alot abt e chess scene?

tuition later at 730.. onli a few more mins(30+ mins) to war3... lalalala

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:::Monday, March 01, 2004:::

B4 i get down to other stuff regarding yar myeslf and stuff mayb i shld just blogged wad happened todae
(man i wan to recall in yrs to come wad happened in this dae and time, this is like a personal diary to me man)

woke up around 805? left at 845 foudners dae bla bla.. den wen ray went up to get physiccs award i was like cursing myself man.. its like i got 2nd (Itink?) and tat seriously sux.. all along last yr i tot i was e best.. dunno wtf happened.. man this will be further tok ab t later

after school endedaround 12 i went lan wif ds .. met ws there... at first no comps so we went and ate lemon chicken rice(man its nt tat bad after all) no comps at coronation den went to btp... which had shit comps wif no internet and unupdated war3... took bus 154 wif ds after tat.. super long to boon lay mrt... regretted not stopping at clementi :L(:(:(:(:(

oh ya jace and tin asked me whether ican paly soccer at 4(changed to 5 later) i said can but den after asking my mum she didnt allow me.. sux man its like i wanna socialise play to haf better frenship but cant.. but den its quite true tat my mum said i will haf a bz wk(challengers) and shld onli play during weekend.... den wc called me and wasted my 20 cents again asking where iwas( i didnt know he going i onli told wl and he didnt reply my sms).. anyway hope tat wc wl jace tin and the acsi frenz plus maybe brandy will haf fun there... unfortunately i cant go :(:(:(

hmm finsih abt blogging wad happened todae till 420 pm.. time to talk abt wad i thought..

'jack of all trades master of none'
wad a familar saying... and to think of it i tink its me man... it totally sux when u can do so much stuff but den u aint gd or e best or one of e best in it........starting wif chess, come on man cj stop deceiving urself.. u aint even tat gd.. u tink u r but u r nt.. compare urself wif others u are so far behind.. there is this linares 2004 tourney going on now(kasparov tied leading as of now) and tat all those gms are palying wif media attention.. its like damn cool and i dun hafing tat life..
go on to war3.. just watched a VOD this morning.. a sc bw one.. where a terran rushed a zerg mcv rush... its like these 2 players were in a korea stadium wIF tens of thousands of pple watching them play on the stage... war3 its the same.. i ALWAYS tink iam gd in war3.. but den come to tink of it i aint realli tat pro... i dun mind being to best i mean iwanna be GOOD the best i nwar3 rep sg in wcg budden i cant its os cant train etc.. realli like playing infront of korea;'s 2 gaming television channels and millions of pple watching... dreams dreams dreams./

also studies, i can studi but nt gd.. like physics u dun wan TO BE 2nd best u WAN TO BE the best.. tat doesnt happened.. and wif most of my test results coming out tml.. i dunno wad to do wif e bad results...
soccer?
lotsa stuff still going thru my mind its damn sucky...... i am like a loser man.. no nothing no achievement no NTH.. its damn sad.. dunno man maybe i shld start tinking abt my real qualities and try to acheve or bringing it to greater heighets

and ya dsww asked me todae i free tinker whether i tot abt death etc bla bla wad happen.. cool to haf an open minded person.. and ya i tot abt those stuff 4.. its damn scary......... but its unavoidable..

life sux

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MAJESTY [HERE I AM]

Delirious?

Here I am humbled by your majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I’m a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I’ve found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I’m your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire

Now I’ve found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Really hope all my friends get to know jesus!

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