:::Monday, March 01, 2004:::
B4 i get down to other stuff regarding yar myeslf and stuff mayb i shld just blogged wad happened todae
(man i wan to recall in yrs to come wad happened in this dae and time, this is like a personal diary to me man)
woke up around 805? left at 845 foudners dae bla bla.. den wen ray went up to get physiccs award i was like cursing myself man.. its like i got 2nd (Itink?) and tat seriously sux.. all along last yr i tot i was e best.. dunno wtf happened.. man this will be further tok ab t later
after school endedaround 12 i went lan wif ds .. met ws there... at first no comps so we went and ate lemon chicken rice(man its nt tat bad after all) no comps at coronation den went to btp... which had shit comps wif no internet and unupdated war3... took bus 154 wif ds after tat.. super long to boon lay mrt... regretted not stopping at clementi :L(:(:(:(:(
oh ya jace and tin asked me whether ican paly soccer at 4(changed to 5 later) i said can but den after asking my mum she didnt allow me.. sux man its like i wanna socialise play to haf better frenship but cant.. but den its quite true tat my mum said i will haf a bz wk(challengers) and shld onli play during weekend.... den wc called me and wasted my 20 cents again asking where iwas( i didnt know he going i onli told wl and he didnt reply my sms).. anyway hope tat wc wl jace tin and the acsi frenz plus maybe brandy will haf fun there... unfortunately i cant go :(:(:(
hmm finsih abt blogging wad happened todae till 420 pm.. time to talk abt wad i thought..
'jack of all trades master of none'
wad a familar saying... and to think of it i tink its me man... it totally sux when u can do so much stuff but den u aint gd or e best or one of e best in it........starting wif chess, come on man cj stop deceiving urself.. u aint even tat gd.. u tink u r but u r nt.. compare urself wif others u are so far behind.. there is this linares 2004 tourney going on now(kasparov tied leading as of now) and tat all those gms are palying wif media attention.. its like damn cool and i dun hafing tat life..
go on to war3.. just watched a VOD this morning.. a sc bw one.. where a terran rushed a zerg mcv rush... its like these 2 players were in a korea stadium wIF tens of thousands of pple watching them play on the stage... war3 its the same.. i ALWAYS tink iam gd in war3.. but den come to tink of it i aint realli tat pro... i dun mind being to best i mean iwanna be GOOD the best i nwar3 rep sg in wcg budden i cant its os cant train etc.. realli like playing infront of korea;'s 2 gaming television channels and millions of pple watching... dreams dreams dreams./
also studies, i can studi but nt gd.. like physics u dun wan TO BE 2nd best u WAN TO BE the best.. tat doesnt happened.. and wif most of my test results coming out tml.. i dunno wad to do wif e bad results...
soccer?
lotsa stuff still going thru my mind its damn sucky...... i am like a loser man.. no nothing no achievement no NTH.. its damn sad.. dunno man maybe i shld start tinking abt my real qualities and try to acheve or bringing it to greater heighets
and ya dsww asked me todae i free tinker whether i tot abt death etc bla bla wad happen.. cool to haf an open minded person.. and ya i tot abt those stuff 4.. its damn scary......... but its unavoidable..
