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Time to face Chinese like a Man! It's war time

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Let me apologise

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i realised sumthing... i am an idiot.. subjects which i tink i did well i DID FUCKING BADLY.. while subjects i tink i did badly are just ok-ok
WHY WAS I SO CONFIDENT ABT PHYSICS? OH WELL U SHLD BE U HAD 2nd in LV LAST YR BUT NOW??? LAST 10 IN CLASS?ZHANG CHANGJIE WAKE UP! PHYSICS IS NOT U U ARE NOT PHYSICS

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I am realli feeling at a lost right now.. every1 in this comp lab is like talking so happy.. its like majority of them did 10 times better than me. i shld just eat shit and die.. die and die and die.. fucking gay! fucking stupid! i dun beleive i am this sucky. ok I AM
i am the onli 1 with a sad face.. onli idiot tat is down here.. staring at this comp wif a blank mind. i dun wan to blog le

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FUCK OFF PHYSICS

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THIS SUX HELL

PHYSICS GO EAT SHIT! I DUN BELIEVE THIS MAN. U ARE EVEN WORST THAN MY ENG OR ANY OTHER SHIT SUBJECTS,,, I HATE U 4eVA, I DUN BELIVE FROM 2nd in LV CAN GO DOWN TO LAST 10-20 in CLASS???? I DUN HAVE A SHITTY FAVOURITE SUBJECT NOW> SO FUCK OFF PPHYSICS
I HATE U.
I HAVE NEVER DONE SO BAD b4. I WILL NV DO WELL AGAIN. THIS YEAR SUX! PHYSICS SUX TO THE CORE!

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Fuck you physics

go and die man ... fucking stupid and crap.. i am like totally in a daze how fucking shit this is. at least my chem is ok.. physics IS GAY.. fucking gay.. i liked it since last yr.. always been doing well. this year sux TO THE CORE! FUCKING GAY. i hate it now

burn in hell physics

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MESSED! SCREWED! CRAPPED! SADED! WTF-ED!

Things really can screw up in just a few seconds. make tat a minute.. make tat a hour.. finally make tat a dae. or a few days.. .the last few days was shit has been shit for me... 4eva and 4va this will remain in me.. just totally sucks... just SUX TO THE CORE.. i dunno wad's wrong with me... i am disintergrating.. to a puddle of water... easily melted... sumthing tat is stupid and crapped up... sum1 tat is an idiot.. tat is a true failure? i am so depressed this week..

Forget the dream

Forget ur sir martin luther dream.. the dream tat u wanan get 8as for os.. tat is totally unrealistic.. tat is totally impossible.. given the grades i haf? i shld go die? i mean maybe i shld just aim for 20 pts can le... sianzzz... got back a math todae.. 1/4 of lv pass, i got 44.4 % (f*** up numbers).. i knew i gonna fail from the moment i did the paper.. juz cannot face it.. i am ZCJ i shld be in the 1/4.. nt the 3/4... die.. parents coming home any min confirm kena screwed... and parents onli remember bad marks and not gd marks.. speaking of marks, let me list down all my crappy marks which wil lget me my 20 points target(my dream is stupid of 8as)

English - 69.2 <4th in class, 10th in level> (thought i failed.. budden this still sucks.. 8as only in lv)
Mother Tongue - 56.0 <25-30th in class? class of 40> (no doubt this sux, i will nv reach an A)
Additional Mathematics - 44.4 (like i said i prefer to be in the 1/4 tat passed? my class 1/3 passed..)
Social Studies - 80.0 (not good enough? it was just pure luck)


the fact is that i shouldnt be competing with my classmates/school mates.. i shld be competing wif myself.. ME.. and yet.. it sux becaz i cant.. i am just too weak to pull myself further.. i belive tml when i get physics and chem back i gonna be damn depressed again.. physics i know i got 24/40 mcq(sux 101%) and i need 66/80 for p2 to get a1.. i view tat as impossbile now... chem i got 32/40mcq(sux 100%) and i need 58/80 for p2 to get a1... even if i get 58, i screwed my chem prac on monday..

speaking of chemistry practical on mondae, i got sum crap stuff.. i just anyhow guess the salt(s).. its like i know cannot be cholrine and ammonia so i just put hydroxide? al203.. blardie stupid.. i gonna fail tat... so i tink my a1 target for chem is as gd as gone.. oh wait i shld be aiming for 20/6 => b3 or b4.. my dream of 8as is stupid

Careless

i lost the pen min ser gave me for my birthday.. how sucky man.. i beleive that i dropped it in bus 193.. on the way home in the bus i usually sit in a way dat my knees would be leaning on the sit in front, using it as support.. i beleive it dropped out there.. sux man... bdae pressie and summore it isnt cheap? i belvie quite ex also.. sianz i feel so useless cant even keep a pen.. cant even manage to make it remain in my possession.. why man? i am just too careless idiot... losing the pen really caused me lotsa grieve... and probably pissed her off also. :( :'( i had like no mood to play war3 yesterdae? after knowing i lost it? sianz the pen... the pen... why did i lose it? it was a lucky pen.. sumthing tat i used during exams.. sumthing tat helped me get gd marks for ss(i had it in my possession) and i did nt haf it wif me todae(lost yesterdae) a math sux? -how i wish i could slap myself man-

Unfair

it realli when u are youngest in the family.. esp youngest in the generation.. u dun get everything tat u wan.. nth at all.. stuff u wan u gonna wait 4eva to haf it.. or even nv ever will get it man... it's like my bro got alot of gd stuff i bleive last time? and den ever sicne my bro-mum quarrel and bro move out and like dun realli care abt my parents becaz of sum big argument.. my parents haf been like looking carefully at me ever since.. i haf bee nwatched everything i do.. my mum keeps nagging '1 son alreadi left me who knows abt the other' 'prepared to stay in old age home' 'i gave so much gd things to my first son.. and he left me'... man its like right now my parents dun wan to gif me alot of priviledges.. they are like damn strict? i wanan haf a new comp also cannot.. they just insist use this use this.. my specs i tell any1 they will luff and say its ancient? and also like my parents keep asking wad girls i know(they always beleive tat my bro gf/wife made my bro became rebellious) den i had to dodge all those qn.. its like u are so freaking controlled!! and deprived!! cannot have anything u want.. nvm no 1 else would haf the same feeling as me.. i am born screwed... come to think of it, i dunno wad my parents gave me b4 tat will make me vividly remember.

Lost

i am realli at a loss of wad to do... realli dunnno how to carry on myself. i was like damn sad on my bed yesterdae b4 slping...

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A week of no updates - Here i come

man i thought my english i failed.. 24th april.. after taking it i thought i flung.. i nv did b4.. gonan be my first time.. budden by the grace of god?? i got 10th in the lv!! hahahaha first time doing so well.. well there are onli 8 distinctions though.. i got 69.2 which is 4th in my class.. damn funny. nv dreamt of this thought i failed.. jesse even said 'how come ur eng bu san bu shi can even beat me??' lolz frankly i tink its just luck.. i was tyco.. my eng isnt this gd.. budden LUCK ROCKS! ok actually 10th sux.. budden its eng so its ok.. i wanan get top 5 for e math physics and chem (the latter 2 almost 0% chance :( )



troy rocks!!! llolz 165 mins.. sat in cinema from 1250 to lets see? 350? oh wait i went into at around 1235(kia su??) lolz.. storyline quite nice.. war becaz of love... at least its better than for power/land/glory.. hahha.. cant realli reveal too much abt it just in case those pple reading havent watch it.. nt gonna spoil the surprise.. hahah after watching at ps.. walked up and down escalator twice? wth.. so lame but fun? hahahha.. and ya gotcha!! u are worth 2 dollars and 50 cents. .hahahaha

man movie marathon this week? watched 3 in 5 days? tuesday dawn of the dead(stupid show) fridae 50 first dates and sat troy.. too bad i didnt go out wif my class on fridae morning for blood brothers? wonder if ws and dsww did scream or nt



went soccer after e movie.. had to travel all the way to bukit panjang from ps?? took north line.. got reason though south and west line might be faster? den ya 2.50. hmm den also sorri andrew choy for waiting for me.. the most funniest thing is tat i arrange myron to pick me and andrew up at the lrt station.. just in time though.. just like amazing race....
hmm soccer was not too bad, saw kelvin for e first time in yrs since primary days.. had a nice chat wif rennick too.. lolz j pang! haha kelvin yu also.. i tink the most 2 thigns i would remember is tat i anyhow kick from side den jason chan headed in? and ya i got the ball in between wl legs and den side footed bk to score(Tat was DAMN NICE K).. hmm almost got our whole 'gang' into a fight wif an unreasonable kid.. budden of course we are acs.. we dun fight! the bets is yet to be..
after soccer went jace house for a while.. den go bpp to go eat.. first itme trying sum dunno wad mian.. nt bad.. juz tat i was damn tired till i was half asleep while eatting.. hmm bad sign. i am agegin1!! i played soccer for like 30 mins alreadi damn tired.. though from 5-7..



man wc pissed me off indirectly todae again. imean when u say tat u are pro at sumthings.. please make sure tat u are realli good.. all these while he has ben saying he damn pro in pool etc.. budden when isaw him play i tink even me wl and jc is better than him? talk big action little.. nvm.. its like its ok to be arrogant and proud budden live up to it please..



finally got to lv 14.. gain 2 lvs in 2 days.. stupid comp keeps jamming though.. gave me like 10 losses in two days in solo just becaz it jammed.. luckily it didnt jam den i swiftly got to lv 14 in the new amm.. gonna aim for lv 18 b4 next sat?



results coming back soon enxt week..first would be ss on tues den a math on wed chem and physics on thurs and e rest o nfridae.. gonna die.. i tink my parents gonna be super pissed at my marks.. i am nt saying this and hoping for a miracle to happen.. i know i did badly :( *sobs.. nvm face the music!

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Square Earth + 2004 brief plans

maybe i should start off by saying i am like a zombie now.. woke up in e middle of e night... for an hr.. den go to slp.. haizz maybe i am either too piggish or too zombie like.. slp from 4-11 1230-3... hmm tat is around 9 hrs.. budden i feel like a zombie... haizz.. budden nvm.. at least it was worth it? lolz hmm didnt know a fan club rox tat much hahahaha



hmm ya speaking abt square world.. its realli damn scewy square.. thigns are so proportion till tat 9+1= 10 or 5+5 = 10 or 1+0=10.. i doubt any1 would udnerstand wad i am toking abt.. its sad for sum pple.. sad for others.. overall its damn stupid.. blind=happy and not blind=sad ?? wad logic.. haizz nvm.. its a square world(if ur brain aint functioning den tink of it as non spherical).. why do thigns like this happen?? sum more blind leads to prosperity... clear leads to sadness.. omg i am weird talking weirdly.. i tink onli sum1 knows wad i mean.. now for codewords : bl2hcsl2s..ysm1ss,lib.. ysm2ss,lib.. ifs4lbdnvmcda...msr.... haizz to tink tat i haf to type in codewords onli me understand.. budden ihu








hmm ok i set out wad i gonna do for this yr as a brief.. i mean for studies la.. ok after exams on tuesdaes i gonna enjoy life til lweek end.. den its horror till 31st may aka chiense os.. i gonan get a!!! beter be n a1.. pple will luff at me saying this.. i gonna prove them WRONG!! i gonna do it.. i haf a dream a dream no 1 else haf a dream tat 1 dae(late feb 05) i wil lgo up and colelct my 8as cert... its a dream, a mindset tat i will attain!.. ok so back 2 e topic after may31st i gonna enjoy whole of my june.. join war3 lan tourney join nag 2 chalets hopefully lotsa movie outings etc.. hopefully i do well for war3 and win nag u17(gonna train like siao) den from july onwards war3 outta my lfie till end of yr!! gonna uninstall it!! i muz mug from july to get 7 more a1SS! i wil ldo it!!! dere can be miracles when u bleive.. this will affect my lfie.. its my Life!



hmm need to go now.. hiazz wish i could blog longer typign other stuff.. cant time is precious left 2 parpesa.. his and math.. confident for latter but muz not be confident.. i tink i am an idiot.. cockiness killemd in mcq p1 for physics i told myself i will get 40 told qy tat.. in the end i got 24/40 omg.. p2 better buck me up... ok.. get off the comp!! stardie hist.. comminist hitler the loser tov and everythign!! cold war

stupid tagboard down.. screw the company???? (no tks.. ask sum1 else 2 do it) nt to mention i won brandy 4-3 in solitarie hahaha was 3-0 down dunno wad i doing..

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Mid yrs rox0r (my b@lls)

Hmm lets list the papers i have taken so far and how 'well' i have did them.. lucky this arent os or else i probably commit suicide since my life would be screwed



hmm ok.. budden i no time.. didnt even cokmplete the essay qn part b.. scribbled last para.. wads more to say?



totally screwed.. dunwan to tok abt it further.. just gonna say tat 24/40 mcq(which ishld be getting high 30s) wont mantain my 2nd



hahah this is the killer man.. paper 1 dunno how to do paper 2 dunno how to do.. ok so i chance myself onli 25% chance passing (which is arleaid damn high i tink...)



i dunno how i did for this.. too discouraged for other papers to sort of check.. i onli know in mcq last qn i put correct answer.. den dunno which devil told me to change to wrong answer...




blardie crap man.. i am like screwing up my exams.. muz be too much of war3 le... cant control desire for it!! no!!! must RESIST.. war3 is devill.. muz nt fail into temptation.... well i am quite arrogant budden a mensa like me cant do this badly.. better buck up FOR PRELMS!!!.. and succeed ur goal!!!! and speaking of mensa... i received my jacket w00T! lolz.. damn cool.. red inside dark blue outside i tink :) hall so cold so i wear lolz

tml's geog... my worst subject i tink.. other than chinese(which obvious impossible to try to get a for os..)... budden there can be miracles when i beleive... oh no! been beleiveing too much.. gotta need to mug like #@%@ tonite.. dun let myself down..tink gona do 2 physical 2 human geog.. hopefully e chapters i stardie would come out..



each one of this sayings will describe a particular feature.. (function.. 1 is to 1)

Don't flatter yourself that friendship authorizes you to say disagreeable things to your intimates. The nearer you come into relation with a person, the more necessary do tact and courtesy become.
--Oliver Wendell Holmes

Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something and that this thing must be attained.
--Marie Curie Polish-French chemist

However long the night(suffering), the dawn(joy) will break.
--African Proverb

There's a fine line between genius and insanity. I have erased this line.
--Oscar Levant

coded words 4 myself 2 rembmer - ess,ems,idw2d,hm,rm,t.tatap..lib!wx

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This is blardie shit and crap up

PHYSICS SuCKs.. ESP FOR MCQ HOW F UP THIGNS CAN GET

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I feel lethargic... and its e first paper tml.. wth.. stress?

ok i admit. e last time i blogged i said i wont be starding a lot.. maybe i had.. maybe i havent.. to me i tink i haf been putting more effort than the last few yrs combinded.. budden to other pple it mite be a pinch of salt onli.. ok i been trying to mug mug mug.. budden dun realli haf motivation.. so ya la.. i am messing wif the marks (on e line...) hmm lets c, xh-wc liz-tin and wl went out to mug yestedae after chess trng.. cannot imagine the efficiency rate(no offense pls :P).. maybe 150% maybe 50%.. it can work both ways rite? and ya i am tinking of tat.. hahahha



slp at like 4am todae morning(urs eyes deceving u.. its realli FOUR(4) (there's the pic dere to make u belvie too).. ok i aint tat siao to stardie till 4 (if i did i would rather slp) okkk the pt is tat i mug till 230(i mean i watched jackie chan after tat mugged) den ya father went to slp went to chat on e phone till 4.. lolz.. hmm now tat's abit strange hu would tok in the wee hrs for so long? well its like i mugging den so happen minz got insomia(ok i bleive u..) den she cant slp so we went to chat till my cordless no more batt.. hahaha.. and e worst thing is i had tuition todae at 10.. so woke up at 930.. effective slptime 5.5 hrs.. tat's sux? actually i shld fee lguilty for making minz stay awake so blardie long



ok my life is my life(i dun haf a wife so its nt hers).. i need to make full use of it.. like the pic explains all... being influenced by christainity(though i aint 1) life is full of obstacles.. some pple make it some ple fall off budden sum pple FALL but make it thru hard work and determination.. wad am i gonna make the full use of my life? i gonna succeed.. determination.. hard work.. its MY LIFE... even my bg song is abt this.... i AINT gonna waste it away.. i gonna do thigns tat i wanna do.. not gonna waste e time.. time is precious



speaking of making e full use of life.. i just thought of this.. i tink its veri true

a small event might change ur life 4eva 4 e better or mayb worst

i dun tink any1 can argue wif me on this.. its so true.. lets take eg. u screw ur o lvs u are screwed.. i got ltosa real life examples.. gonna use my bro(no offense..) my bro a star scholar 4 distinction 2 s paper distinctions a lv.. from acjc.. 2nd highest award recipient dere(sum dunno tan dunno wad award but its prestigious) had interview for presidents scholar(i tink he didnt make it or he didnt wan to phycological interviews..) every1 would know ok this guy genius.. done so well for a lv.. acjc 2nd top recipient.. surely his life is all set out for him.. scholarship 8 yrs i tink go overseas study all paid for by a star... budden ya.. a silly mistake/decision made all this screw up.. some of my frenz alreadi knowwad i mean.. it sux.. and the worst ting is tat...(dun get it its ok)... SO I HAVE DECIded i will nv eva make decision w/o tinking.. it wil lruin me my life and possibly my frenz



gotta go mug now.. wish me luck pple for my exams.. i wanna ace all my math and sciences. i am nt gonna be suan at the prospect of nt taking 9 subject.. i am like marin luter king.. i haf a dream.. a dream tat no 1 else haf.. i haf a dream tat one dae(late feb 05) i will return to acsB auditorium and my name wil lbe read out as top scholar.. 8a1s... and i wil lbe shaking all my teachers handgs.. pple mite say i am overaiming arrogant budden its gd to haf dreams.. i AM gonna ACHIEVE IT

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