My life- A Roller Coaster

:::Saturday, August 20, 2005:::

looking back

so much things have changed. it seems that the world has progressed so much. and i'm like left behind. well. i lost touch wif many of my frenz that i usually mixed with. people like jason in aus. justin in njc. xh still in sec sch soccer etc and stuff. den like bk wl wc all also like never really mixed le.

i just like browsed thru angie and bk blog. top 2 pictures on the left. just read thru a post or 2. yar also read xh. well seems that they aare v close now.

well. the world just proceeds w/o me. i'm like left behind?

at least church getting better. i mean yea last time i onli know the ac people dere. den i dun realli like know the rest. at least right now each week getting better and better.

sch's cf i still dunno 90% of the people. its like nth really drives me to go dere. like yesterdae i went i told michelle to sit wif me becaz i dunno any1 else?

i didnt know i'm that kind of person that cant start a convo. remembered during lunch i was queueing up to buy drink. jas and michelle came behind me from dunno why also q-ing. they just like talked talked i look at them den i cant even start a sentence? didnt even speak.

maybe its becaz i'm at such a low moral of my life. luckily i'm nt at the bottoms of my christianity life though. i'm like low moral low self esteem etc.

i dun realli haf close frenz now. all just like semi close frenz. bettre than normal frenz but nt realli that close.

9 months in jc. wad haf i done? i dun realli know man. haf i accomplished anything?

i know for one i have accepted christ

last week intersch. i barely interacted wif all my chess buddies. i just revolved mainly around my acjc sch mates. jon alan wern jian weng chee. and i mean they aint my close frenz. i dunno the world like tumbling

in sch. who do i really talk to? wenyi? hussein? leroy last time but right now he's more towards ivan sean grp. and yea i dun really tell him or talk to him alot le. wenyi hussein. hmm 2? den wad abt the sb2 pple like huimin sarah yiling chris? i dunno. leroy told me a few days ago that he feels that i've changed the way i talk to them or relate to them. dat i have put on a more 'dao' look. have i? i dunno. maybe its just like the world revovling and i'm stagnant. or i prolly undeveloped myself.

nth drives me to go to sch now. i wish all the days of my life now would be like sat night at church or such.

i'm like hating studies now. i'm like getting in the mood of war3 now. i'm like hack caring so much stufff

lord help me pull my life together again!

i gonna base my life on worshiping god. and the purpose is to live for his glory

my targets for this year would prolly be getting 4 As take 2 s papers. but realli i wanan do it for god.

i've been swearing alot recently. wow i promised myself to stop but havent

i'm ranting

just as i feel that i've caught up in my work. i'm so behind. u name it i am behind. math physics chem econs chi gp. everythign also like blur blur. my life seriously in the mess. i'm trying to juggle war3 practice(i dun do it much), sch work and my christian life. of course the greatest priority is the 3rd one

oh ya add emotional stuff, social stuff, psychological stuff to the list.

help me.

the world has gone by
leaving me left behind
wished to proceed
but am far too behind

going off to church now. i tink i'm suppose to do gel todae. gonna bring wax and gel for fun just to stir up haha.

ok enuf ranting

-iwanttoknowthetruth-

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