My life- A Roller Coaster

:::Sunday, July 10, 2005:::

well. they got first.

the next few days will definitely be very emotionally draining on me. maybe not emotionally but more of psychologically and just feelings. it would be hard to live a life of christ. of being like him in the area where sacrifice is concern. sacrifice my own happiness for others.

i think i have cope pretty well so far. kudos to me, i wasnt like this b4 i aaccepted christ. really just need his strength through this period.

i went down today to see prize presentation, didnt hurt me. really next few days, esp if they present it in sch. it is really weird when ur frens around you know u are a chess player yet u aint in the 'school team'. and shld i even explain? i mean god knows what i did. but yet its hard for me to know he only knows, i would feel 'cheated' becaz i'm just afraid pple think i just suck tat's why i nv play.

i gota an email from marcus today. i read it replied it. i really dunno, sumtimes i really feel thigns are really unfair. i mean even he has a screwed viewpoint in my opinion. i really wanna blog everything down, but guess due to frenship issues and my personal reasaons i wont.

but well, i made a committment to god on saturday church service. i promised him that i would continue be commited to chess this year like wad i did in sec 4 though i onli haf vp post. i mean it's really hard doing everything all over again when i know the p doesnt do that much and credit doesnt go to me. i mean must i do everything again? it's hard. i just need god's strength in this. it's really me and chess. whether i am committed to it or nt. if i am, i do not need to care abt the post or more importantly whether i'm happy abt who became p and whether i am willing to do stuff and give the person credit, its abt doing it becaz i want to do..

i made the commitment to god. hope i can keep it

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