:::Monday, July 04, 2005:::
sumthing is seriously wrong man.

when i am trying to be a nice person. trying to change from 'i want everything and win everything' attitude to 'i want to win i want everything but i don't need everything and win everything' attitude. sumhow i cant? i mean what the rubber duckie man. i want to let this j2 play in this weekend sg poly chess team tourney so that he can win sumthing with the team of6(including him). i mean its kinda sad that if sum1 like chess like him but nv really got anything big.

it took me like a lot of thoughts just to make the decision. i mean i remember on sat after the chess league at bishan we were discussing. den i was quite insistent dat i wanna play becaaz weng chee and wern jian playing meaning = sure win sumthing most prob.

but i just thuoght and thought. sumtimes i haf to give way. sumtimes i shld let others haf chance. i mean i shld be more than glad that i got three asean age grp team silver medals. i mean wad more could i haf asked for this year? tat's really what i really wanted, and onli a fraction of players will achieve that.

and of all things, instead of me getting replaced. so many complications right now. it seems as if i pissed a few people off by saying i wanna give up my team spot. my pres is like super pissed at me i guess? i dunno really know why though. den 1 player was like pissed at me becaaz i posted the team line up on my blog? wow.; i cant even post my own feelings and thoughts.

it's weird when i wanan give way but there's so much obstructions. its like when i made the decision i except ok everything is suppose to be going smoothly becaz it's a 'correct' decision. yet even jonathan said 'i hope u know what u are doing if u get up ur place'

wat the rubber duckie larhx.

ok enuf le. i really dunno larhx. maybe i shldnt think so much.

tml schoosl starts again :( sighz i dun wanna go back. sighz big clashing. i gotta retake my chinese listening tml after sch.den i got hockey trng and the dumb bus will leave w.o me for ccab. i dun wanna spend on a cab 1 pax so ex larhx. been trying to saave money. i mean so manyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy presents to get these few weeks. already owe 2 pple aroudn 5 bucks le. wow lorh.

but i'm just looking for results. well if u are sum1 whose pissed over exams, dun read on. but wait i'm quite pissed also. but anyway i'm bragging now. so read on if u wanna hate me. I CANT WAIT FOR RESULTS to come back! i think i'm the only pig that wanan results come back tml! i dunno will or nt though. oh wait i'm overconfident le. i mean how could i do well if i had onli 6 days to mug in the holidays. and i barely did. OH SHUSSSH changjie wait for results first

on a final note

i was led into temptation today. i'm so freaking disappointed in myself today. i really dunno why i let temptation overcome me. :( i dun even know whether izzit temptation or nt. it's hard to explain

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