:::Sunday, July 03, 2005:::
hmmm where do i start??!
ok firstly. damn! not many people fail for the crush007.com thingy. onli 1 person i tink? haha hussein! lolz. i got this thingy from alyson den well i did wad sum people did to me. i wrote her name on everything. hahahahahz. :P lolz. and sum replies on the thingy were funny too. :P :) hahahz
yea! exams are finally over. friday was minced meat. sure fail chinese and chem prolly bye bye. didnt do like 10 marks? well, anywaay i'm finally finished with my exams!! =DD right now its just getting back marks and see wad my parents say :( my mum said "i'm bornt at birth to be expected to do welll" :( t.t =(. nvm i want to do well anyway too. but for terms? haizz
i think i'm going to make a big sacrifice or already maaking. well sometimes in order for success or just to be a nice guy etc, sacrifices are needed. there's so many schools chess TEAM tourney around. there's schools league(alternate week 3 weeks), singapore poly next week, intersch in august and prolyl interclub in august too. being changjie, i would always want to win and get first and play in everything. however, sumhow i just feel that i shld give a spot in the singapore poly away to this j2 who really wants to play.
i mean the team now is ....wad the crap la. i'm like restricted on bryan sum j2 would want to play, budden its like based on skill he dun really deserve to be in. but if my memories serve, he never really won any team medal or individual medal in chess b4. and i shld be glad and thankful that i already got 3 from ASEAN this year alone. yea i kinda asked god abt it, and yea i tink i shld just give my spot up. it's hard you know. you know why?(wow talking to myself)
i'm that kind of person that's jealous easily. i hate seeing people have things i dun have. i promised liz(told her on the phone) and myself that when the team wins 1st or 2nd i would not feel pissed becaz i am not inside. and that it's a sacrifice larhx. dun feel jealous. i dunno if they would present it in sch but when they do, i do know i might feel very ... but i shall not!
maybe i shld also try to test myself on this occasion.
and yea i feel quite sad that i tink jonathan and marcus dun recognise my asean achievements. i mean for inter sch team, they will put weng chee and wern jian in confirm. den the rest round robin... which includes me..
there's sum much stuff i can rumble, but i wont. must have trust that everything will go on smoothly
oh ya... my aunt just discovered got lung cancer :( dunno wad stage still determining. sighz. later going down to visit her. den after that prolly meet jason. he touched down le.
ok i shall piss every1 by typing this down. i want my results back ASAP! wahah. loloz
attitudes for success. sumthing talked abt in trinity yesterday. do i have them? wad do i view success. wad visions do i haf? do i have tenacity to push on even though when everything seems to fail or not succeed.?
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