My life- A Roller Coaster

:::Tuesday, May 17, 2005:::

just wanna say sum stuff b4 i talk abt the stress and commitments in my life later on. firstly, i am a high DC person. they are of equal strength.

well. i think one thing for sure. i just wanna tell every1 that reads this. if sum1 helps you, you should thank the person for his/her help even if it didnt help much. the least that one could do would be just keep quiet and not be ungrateful of the thought that sum1 has helped u.

i find myself liking to help others. offering my services, offering my help or just offering my thoughts of encouragement. i feel happy and glad when i have chances to just help or give encouragement. eg. like last week i got run wif yiling and huimin the last 100m of their 2.4km. and today i kinda ran the last 100m wif the gals of my class that retook. the thing that makes me feel glad and pleased the most is that i get a 'tks' or a positive response when i offer my help. it's like today jovita said 'tks chang' i felt like satisfied that people do respond positively. same thing for last week.

it's alright if people dun offer gratitute or such. i offer my help, i encourage becaz i want to and juz think i shld as my human nature. i dun do such things juz for the 'tks chang'. HOWEVER what i hate the most is that people sumtimes dun appreciate my help/encouragement. i mean if u are unsatisfied or juz feel image conscious that changjie is helping/encouraging, please like keep quiet. dun give negative remarks or unappreciation.

i'm nt gonna mention in detail wad happened that made me kinda pissed and angry at myself. i kinda wrote a note to this sum1. it's regarding the person running student council. well, apparently i didnt ge the note to this sum1 monday morning and i realised he/she onli received it today? well. guess wad? this is wad the person said to me at the start of my recess

"hey changjie. i received ur note. veri pai seh lei. the moment i got i just kept it in my pocket"

i dunno if i am reading too much into people's words and thoughts, but this is really like true unappreciation larhx. i mean so u are pai seh that a person called changjie wrote u an encouragement note and sum of ur classmates see it. therefore u just chucked it oneside(into ur pocket) w/o seeing/reading it.

nvm i shall not dwell too much. i know while queueing up for chicken rice i wwas super pissed.

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changing topic now. shall nt think too much of wad happened. i just did sumthing just now. i took 2 a4 size white blank papers. on 1 paper, i wrote all the list of work i haf to do by the end of this week. they are

read package(friday)
summary notes(thursday)
chinese test (4 articles on thursday)
econs lecture notes (topic 3)
econs tys (topic 3)
chemistry (chemical kinetics)
chemistry (tutorial)
physics (dynamics)
physics (work energy power lecture notes)
physics (work energy power tutorial)
math (trigo lecture notes)
math (tutorial 12)
math (tutorial 13)
project work

reason why i want to complete all these? becaz i'm going to start mugging for my terms exams from next monday onwards(terms starts on 27th june). wow changjie becoming a nerd and mugger? well. i think that's pretty much the scenerio. i got alot of commitments these few weeks. and my studies would be aaffected i know. so in order for it to nt be affected and my terms exams to do well i haf to staart now. on the other a4 sheet i wrote down my calender from now till 26th june

REMEMBER all the days are of updated since today. i am sure there are days i am filled up too just i dunno yet

18th bridge 2-630 pm wed
20th CF 430-630pm(will drag) fri
21st bridge 9-6 pm church 730-930 pm sat
23rd choir concert 7-9+pm mon
24th hockey 5-7+pm tues
25th chess 230-430 pm wed
27th cf 430-630 pm camelot 8-10pm friday
28th chess 200-600pm church 730-930 pm sat
30-8th of june. asean intensive chess trng 9-130pm
4th june chess trng 2-6 church 730-930 sat
10-20th june asean age grp. in thailand. overseas. leaving singapore.

REMEMBER this is juz as of today.

that leaves me wif veri little time to do my revision. so i gotta start early. starting of next monday i will be nerd. i will try to still go out though. but i doubt i haf the time. it's a tight schedule. but i know the lord will guide me thru it. i must haf faith. i know he will make time for me so that i can spend wif my frenz and enjoy wif them. it's gonna be a stressful period but i muz haf 100% trust that god will guide me through.

oh a. there's 2 things i want to state:
1. i dun wan any1 to pity me becaz of my hectic life. this is becaz i choose to take up these commitments myself
2. i hope i dun faint in sch.

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