My life- A Roller Coaster

:::Wednesday, December 08, 2004:::

let me blog something sad today. (or have i been blogging about sad stuff only all the time?)

I just got a look at myself. In the mirror. In the heart. In my face.

And the results...

Starting..

Studies = sHIT. 9 points. WTH IS TAT? tat's dung. rubbish. pathetic. 6 pts is ideal 7 is ok. looking back at o levels. i wont even get 9 again. let's say 15. = GG ACJC (and i wanna go rjc damnit). all i know got like pro pro? let's leave barker peeps out..

Chess = last count i think 400+ in singapore. can eat dung and jump man. this year is pathetic. no team medal(last yr i was left out in the first team too.) individual 23rd.. nag 6th(from 4th last yr) didnt go for aseasn(last yr did) wasnt selected for singmas(not that i think i would but compare to last yr i was) playchess 17++ only. try and try to pump also cannot.

IQ = 135 in p3. WTH tat freakign sux. estein has 180? marie curie 200? most intelligent women now alive is 178 i think. so what if avg is 100? SO???? 135 is defined as top 98 percentile. i think it's nonsense. I always dreamt i shld retake my iq test, pay the 48 dollars and appear in newspapers. yea. continue DREAMING.

Attitude = shit up. so many pple in my sch hate me for my arrogance and egoistic. plus proudness too. screwed up. i always say wrong things at wrong time. i get carried away with 'good' results and end up boasting. i belittle pple often. look down too. cant seem to erase all my vulglarities.

no abilities = no muscial talent. (i even frekaing went to use my hp record welcome to my life with my singing with simple plan. and yux) no sporting talent(i feel i have but its lost? and gone. see freaking egoistic again). no socialibility talent. no shit.

old = i'm old. youth is gone?. and it sux.

religionless = i have my own personal promise that i wont take up any religion for the sake of taking 1 up. eg. christianity just for the sake of knowing pple and have more fun. i want to only be involed in the true religion and then be happy there. and it's fREAKING STRESSING ME out and making me crazy when i keep searching.

person = i'm not a typical person

sensitive = when pple freaking say sum stuff that even make me doubt myself. i just get super angry in my heart. eg. "can u get out now so i can go ginza plaza straight away." "never mind i got to put down the phone now(hangs)" these 2 are recent. not gogin to bother to dig up memory. be it fren foe family strangers. any1 can do so. and if any1 says i blog just to gain sympathy. tat's another asshole

no confidence = not explaining. personal stuff.

life = no LIFE. lifeless changjie. nothing. nothing and nothing. want to haf sumthing but either lz indolent insolent screwed up. etc

end of sad post

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-Ability may get you to the top but it's character that keeps you there- -I haven't failed, I have found 10,000 ways that don't work- -Winning isn't everything, neither is losing- -We live a life by what we get, we make a life by what we give- -What lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us- if the world did'nt suck, we would all fall off?- -First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win- -To the world you might be one person, but to one person you might be the world- -If the minimum wasn't acceptable it wouldn't be called the minimum- -Nothing is a problem- .:x:Abt Me:x:.

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Here I am humbled by your majesty
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Here I am, knowing I’m a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb

Now I’ve found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice

Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
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Forever I am changed by your love
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