:::Monday, October 11, 2004:::
every step that i take is another mistake..
and every second i waste is more than i can take..
everynight i pray with no proof anyone could hear
in our hearts a hope for a song
we barely understand
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There's two things i would want to do with my blog.
1. To change my blog address so i can really type personal stuff, really personal in the sense that no 1 knows and only i know. that's personal. If i change my blog address then all these can be done
2. Just delete it and keep a personal diary
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I really dont get it. I think i am someone that is too overly concerned on all aspects of life. Everything and anything. Take yesterday for example. I learnt many things from the experience of sending a friend off who i might never see again in my life. That's for god to decide. I learnt that friendships build the character of someone, build the inner self and it's the building blocks of everyone of us. Though I may not be one of his closest friends, I feel that as long as you care and show concern, it's good.
I learnt that I do stuff for the 'feeling' of accomplishment and doing stuff just to feel 'good' in my inner self. I learnt that one truly does things because it is what he wants to, and not for seeking praise or recognition. I was quite amazed that so many people turned up. Make it to around 24 pupils of my class, that's 24/40. which is 60%. I was, 'yes' at least i managed to get this organised, having a sense of success. I kinda quietly took up this role of 'let's give a good farewell'. The effort that I put in in asking and notifying people the past week on the time and place to meet, plus the countless smses i sent to confirm and many thanks to Edward and Darius Sim Rui Xiang for multiplying the smses i send. I was expecting the Dinner at 730 to have around 15? and the send off around 10 more. But guess what? 24 people turned up for the dinner, all at the Changi Mrt station waiting at 730. Plus a few more people turned up for the farewell. To name a few, Andrew from 4A1, Sean Ting from 4B1 etc. Though there were some minor errors, like choosing place to eat, I feel a sense of accomplishment that I can manage some stuff.
Before Dennis went off, I said this to him.
'All the best for your future, have fun and good luck. Take care'
And yea gave him a present me and ruben shared. A christain CD that i bought. It's some integrity title thingy. Inside it i placed the keychain brandon gave me for my birthday labbelled 'thank you for being my friend' and i wrote a note in there.
'Once an Acsian Always An Acsian, The best is yet to be--- Chang'
Thanks to all who came and valued the friendship.
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O Level's is just around the corner. Soon I would be waving hi to it, and soon i would be saying goodbye to it. There's someone wrong with me. I am getting too distracted. I want to make mugging my hobby now, but unforunately it's not possible with all the things happening. Like i said, i want to make my blog more private maybe so i can post everything and anything. 'I am Going Under'. Some people would give the heck attitude, but i wont and i want to settle things first. But i do not want to. contridictary.
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Time to play some chess before i start on my work. It's 1135 AM here. I ponned school today. Mainly because 60% of my class agreed so. Hopefully no trouble.
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posted by blurblock:) 10:57 AM
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.:x:Abt Me:x:.
Name:-Zhang Changjie-
Bdae:-23/04/88-
Sch:-ACJC-
Cca: -chess(1731)-
Trademarks: -slacker,stoner,sucker-
Personal: -emotional person,hide his feelings,enclosed person,sensitive nature-
Official Opening: 30/03/04-
MAJESTY [HERE I AM]
Delirious?
Here I am humbled by your majesty
Covered by your grace so free
Here I am, knowing I’m a sinful man
Covered by the blood of the Lamb
Now I’ve found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice
Majesty, Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed, but alive in your hands
Majesty, Majesty
Forever I am changed by your love
In the presence of your Majesty
Here I am humbled by the love that you give
Forgiven so that I can forgive
Here I stand, knowing that I’m your desire
Sanctified by glory and fire
Now I’ve found the greatest love of all is mine
Since you laid down your life
The greatest sacrifice
Really hope all my friends get to know jesus!
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