My life- A Roller Coaster

:::Tuesday, September 28, 2004:::

I feel Very Bad man

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ok. i am whining aawwway again. and i really feel damn bad. let's dump results away for one side kay? i mean i dun gif a #@$@#$#@ abt results if they are just going to screw u up. the is the scnerio

When the a math papers (paper 1) was released todae, i thought to makeself. 'since i screwed up p2 i believe i need as high as possible for p1 for a cushion for my a1' i got back my marks. 66/80. only four people got A1s in my class for p1. (lucas and lando is 62 me and zhi wei 66.. compare to level highest got 2 76 i tink. plus 1 68 den dunno who else) so i was like ok '66' i calculated at home was 69-72. so i being the last person to receive my paper went back to my seat and started checking my marks. then came along this matrices question, it was like AB = D. the provided A and provided D. so u gotta find inverse of A (idid) however i times it DA instead of AD. and its wrong. Fortunately(UNFORTUNATE,read on), the person infront of me named david ng did the same as me and got same answer but was marked correct. Of coursed i felt overjoyed(at the point in time i didnt know the DA and AD correct method) so i was like ok i am going to get 2 more marks and more backing. david got 40/80 fyi.

Den Ms Ving (my a math teacher) said check thru any mistake so i went up, brought david's paper wif me and showed her. And it sux when i was wrong to assume i would get two more marks... and thus she went to minus 2 marks from davin to make it 38/80. den EVERYthing sux, i was like telling my teacher dun minus i feel damn bad and its nt my paper etc.. but i cant blame her if she does it. i didnt know how to explain to david but i went back but i told david the truth, and he was like kinda upset? yi chang kong xi yi chang sumthing? joy one moment sadness the other? den his face was like and he was like damn sad till he was a little teary... i didnt know wad to do la. i apologised and i hoped to myself maybe he could understand. man becaz of this, the person beside him called sam lee was like saying this to me. 'u go make him fail alreadi den u say sorri, got any use or nt' i was like WTH lor. ok my fault i made him fail budden not intentional right? becaz of my greediness of wanting more marks that i thought i was correct, and didnt check wif other frenz to confirm first dat i made this fren of mine fail. i mean. SUX LAR. Later on i heard ms ving kinda telling him tat see paper 2 first, if it makes a difference den she will gif back 'bonus' 2 marks. ok i tink ms ving is pissed at me. She's trying to be fair in the sense that you're wrong means you're wrong but she's also trying to be kind. and here i am .... sux la i just made relations worser den it alreadi is. i feel damn bad lorh. spoilt my day totally.

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To me, i really hope that thigns will turn out fine. In my opinion, to some people passing is an achievement, to me it's A1 that is considered my passing. I made someone sad today, and it didnt feel good. Of course i had contridicting feelings(not going to hide it) like this 'if you're wrong means wrong not my fault right? plus a c5-f9 is no diff' that's wad i thought to myself la. i DID think of it, i dun wanna lie. but i also thought that he deserve as bonus mark and that he shld pass for all his hard work.

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On a brighter note, i secured A1 for E math (63/80 and 81/100) and need 54/80 for chem,physics and amath paper 2 for A1. Physics its 52.5 though. hehe.

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